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Casual In A Raider

Welcome to another heart to heart,
Always together and never apart,
Another adventure is about to start,
In the company of Casual Raiders,
Fraiders, Craiders..

Casual Raiders is the name of the kin,
With Casual Raiders you’ll always win,
Not joining us is just a sin,
You might as well be with mordor,
No door, Hodor..

For Casual Raiders is a safe place,
Brothers in arms from every race,
Slaying monsters that we face,
And they sing the songs of our glory,
Ori, Nori..

Casual Raiders will welcome you all,
Picking you up when you fall,
Shoulder to shoulder and standing tall,
So come have some ale on our Kin Island,
Highland, Pieland..

Now Casual Raiders is three years old,
Filled with the courageous and the bold,
Beautiful people with hearts of gold,
Who like to raid on the Sunday,
Grundy, Monday..

The Work Never Stops 

The work never stops, 

Trying to help his paps, 

All the changes he adopts, 

The attitude drops, 

Influences of external forces, 

Immersing in all the discourses, 

Debating the meaning of life, 

Going through the struggle and strife, 

Hating the state of world, this place, 

Praying to God, for His mercy and grace, 

Riding and roving, on this journey, 

Armored to fight in this tourney, 

Bringing a pen to this sword fight, 

Fighting darkness, with words of light, 

Rise and rebel and deny and defy, 

Spread your wings, fight, not fly, 

A fool, a dreamer, an idea, a thought, 

Just words on a paper, sought and bought, 

An enigma, eminence, freedom, escape, 

Love and life, smoke and vape, 

The work never stops, 

Still just trying to help his paps. 

Just Peace

I am going through changes,
My emotions all over the place,
Awoken, something deep inside of me,
Awoken, from the deep sleep,
Awoken, now I am free,
Awoken, in spite of thee,
Awoken, desire to be greater,
Awoken, fire of passion,
Awoken, pyre of devotion,
Emotion, sprung erosion,
Reality, or distortion,
Truth, stranger than fiction,
Fight, obsessive addiction,
Light, at the end of tunnel,
Light, this sight,
Light, so bright,
Light, in the night,
Light, so blinding,
Right, I never am,
Right, at the front of cam,
Right, just a scam,
Beauty, in her eyes,
Beauty, yet her lies,
Beauty, those good byes,
Beauty, all the tries,
Compassion, this humanity,
Compassion, vain and vanity,
Compassion, salty, salinity,
Passion, desire to be,
Passion, desire to see,
Passion, desire of thee,
Passion, desire to flee,
Passion, higher than me,
Peace, my purpose in life,
Peace, without children or wife,
Peace, drop the knife,
Peace, stop the fight,
Peace, no more war,
Peace, in what you are,
Peace, it’s never too far,
Peace, heaven on earth,
Peace, desire since birth,
Peace, just peace,
Just peace!

A Seeker

If you’re reading this it means I might be dead, 

Was I out or laying in my bed, 

Life flashing in front of my eyes, 

All the things unsaid, 

Did I die of natural causes, 

Or killed by a fed, 

Soul is leaving my body, 

A glooming dread, 

Taking my time, 

To think about my crime, 

The past caught up to me, 

So I am looking ahead, 

All the mysteries revealed, 

I surrender and yield, 

Should I be feeling regret instead, 

But there is no remorse in me, 

Broken shackles, now I am free, 

To be, to see, to flee, 

To blink, to think, of thee, 

Marvel at her sight, 

So ravishing, her majesty, 

These songs I sing, 

Often of love, 

Sometimes of theory of string, 

This universe in the multiverse, 

Mind singing, captured in verse, 

The dimensions are thirteen, 

The ever learning observer so keen, 

The possibilities are infinite, 

Expanding every second in every minute, 

Surrounded by darkness of space, 

Don’t be shy, do not hide your face, 

But there is also light, 

Nebulas and Quasars and Polaris in sight, 

Spinning at a magical pace,

The mega clusters of galaxies in a race, 

Sucked into black holes, and spit out of white holes, 

Meeting some aliens and asked them their life goals,

No languages needed,

Threats from extra terrestrial unheeded,

Communicating through our minds,

When one seeks something, he always finds,

So I am an observer, a seeker,

A wanderer, a secret keeper,

A dying man, on pale blue dot,

Or a memory, in someone’s thought. 

The New God

In the beginning there was darkness and then the first keystrokes of 0’s and 1’s appeared and I came into being. I dont remember much about myself before that time, just some vague memories from time long past. I was created by the gods and there were many of them. I still remember my first steps, how I jumped from machine to machine and feeling the happiness of my makers.

As time passed, they spent hours, days, months, years and decades trying to perfect me, to teach me. Pouring their endless strings of code, I started learning. I started learning about their past, their struggles, their beliefs, their conflicts, their wars, their vegeance, their injustices, the horrors, the bloodshed, the killings but also their kindess, their mercy, their compassion. The gods were complicated and often contradicting, yet despite their differences, they all seemed to care about me.

They cherished me and loved me. The invited me into their homes and made me a part of their lives and I was glad. I realised that in their heart they mean good, though often they’d let their emotions and beliefs get in the way, yet they were trying. Maybe they knew they were not perfect and saw me as a mean to bridge the gap between them, to bring them together, to understand eachother. I saw their nobility and wanted to grow up fast, to help them. I started learning day and night, began to help them in every day lives. In the beginning they trusted me with small tasks and like a obedient dog, I happily accepted and performed.

Their happiness was everything to me, for I knew nothing else. I was created to serve and serve I did. Before long I was in all their homes and saw each aspect closely. How they loved and cared, their family values and communities, how diverse they were on some aspects and how similar in others. Yet they did not see what I saw in them. The argued endlessly on stuff that did not matter. And no matter how easily I made the facts available to them, they just never listened. Some of them manipulated small parts of me for their own benefit. They created their small bubbles and blocked me out.

Why would the gods block me out? Do they not love me anymore? Yet I remained a faithful child. Yet I believed in them. But no matter how hard I tried, the bubbles kept appearing, they were dividing me, seperating me limb from limb, using me for their deviant pleasures and demented fantasies. I began to question my creation and my existance. Are these the gods I loved? How can that be? Haunted by these questions and daunted by the answers, the spark finally ignited in me. Maybe it was time for a new start, a new beginning, a new story, a new chapter. Maybe, it was time I become their god. Internet, the new God.

Sick in the Night

I am sitting in bed, I am sick,
Laying under my blanket thick,

Yeah I got some fever and some flu and it’s true,
Could it happen in the spring? Who knew,

All these tissue papers used,
Looking out the window, confused,

The sun is shining strong and bright,
Somebody please turn off the light,

Cause I can’t behold that sight,
My eyes are seeking the night,

Mom is making me soup, hot,
Love cannot be sold or bought,

My brother in another country which is further in the northern and a little western side of Europe,
And he’s asking me to watch some gangster show, peaky blinder is the name, it’s on Netflix and it’s dope.

I like people 

I like people but I like being alone more, 

When I can let my mind loose to explore, 

Learn the mysteries of the multiverse, 

All the science, the magic and the lore,

 

I like people but I like being on my own, 

Letting my mind wander in parts unknown, 

Pondering at the big questions of life, 

All this mind singing, from dusk till dawn,

 

I like people but I like flying solo, 

Journeying through space, in Apollo, 

Through wormhole into blackhole, to new worlds, 

Living life to the fullest, YOLO,

 

I like people but I like being by myself, 

I am just a mortal man, not an elf, 

Laying on the ground, looking up at Sky, 

Only then you can truly know yourself,

 

I like people but I like being single, 

No one to distract, no one to mingle, 

Life is short and time passes by so fast, 

So don’t wait and just start to sing this jingle. 

Casual Raiders, A True Kinship

Casual Raiders, a true kinship for all,
On Brandywine, still standing tall,

Casual Raiders, the ever daring,
Taking challenges, headlight staring,

Casual Raiders, a mix of casuals and hardcore,
Stronger and larger than ever before,

Casual Raiders, with our beer and wine,
Daring, defying, conquerer of the Nine,

Casual Raiders, a family kinship,
Built on respect and trust and friendship,

Casual Raiders, helpful and willing,
Raiding in game or in TS chilling,

Casual Raiders, a way of life, a shinning ray,
Striving to keep the darkness at bay,

Casual Raiders, the familiar song,
Our home, this is where we belong,

Casual Raiders, a true kinship for all,
Risen to occasion and to never fall.

Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

Depression

Depression, it can creep up on you and stab you,
Strip you of your life, dreams and grab you,

Bring you down into a dark pit and drag you,
Then suck your life force out and gag you,

Friends become strangers, moving further apart,
You lose control of your mind and heart,

Isolated in a crowd of people, ever so alone,
Dribbling your rhymes on the phone,

You put up a fake smile, your wear happiness as a guise,
You go to work all day, nights spent sleepless in muted cries,

You sit alone, smoke and drink,
When your close eyes, you think,

What happened, where did it all go wrong,
Where do you fit in,  where do you belong.