Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

Depression

Depression, it can creep up on you and stab you,
Strip you of your life, dreams and grab you,

Bring you down into a dark pit and drag you,
Then suck your life force out and gag you,

Friends become strangers, moving further apart,
You lose control of your mind and heart,

Isolated in a crowd of people, ever so alone,
Dribbling your rhymes on the phone,

You put up a fake smile, your wear happiness as a guise,
You go to work all day, nights spent sleepless in muted cries,

You sit alone, smoke and drink,
When your close eyes, you think,

What happened, where did it all go wrong,
Where do you fit in,  where do you belong.

Casual Raiders, A Home for All

Hail friend! Casual Raiders is in the house,
Ready your keyboard, recharge your mouse,

We like to raid and we like to have fun,
We help kinnies, we take along everyone one,

We’re the best on Brandywine, when it comes to raids,
Our strength is our team, our glory never fades,

Doesn’t matter if you’re a casual or hardcore,
We’re amazing and larger than ever before,

We have good people, a kin one of a kind,
Built on respect and trust, leaving no one behind,

Two years ago, there was only just me,
Now we have 41 pages of men and women free,

Casual Raiders, a place to be,
Casual Raiders, from Gondor to Bree,

One kin to rule them all,
One kin of unite us,
One kin to bring us all,
And in the light, remind us,

A game is to have fun with friends and family,
We have Ali, CJ, Wook, Tankyn and Emily,

We have pravion, Noranti , Rash and Nick,
And countless others in our clique,

Casual Raiders, a destiny, a home for all,
Casual Raiders, here to stay, and never fall.

I see you now

I see now, I see you, I see now,
When you’re gone, I dream now,

When I was happy and the world was bright,
When you were in my arms, hearts delight,

Oh my lord what happened, you left,
My heart was stolen, it was a theft,

Who can save me now, I wonder,
Will I go on and repeat this blunder,

It is hard to smile now, it is so hard,
Give me some stregth, be my guard,

Oh lord of mine, where are you,
I look up in pain, at that sky blue,

When I am sad, alone and I cry,
A part of me just wants to die,

But when I think of you, and the world about,
I forget my meaningless life, and my doubt,

You are great, greatest of all,
You will save me , when I fall,

Oh my lord, oh my lord, oh my lord,
I will spread your word, absent sword,

I sing songs of happiness, songs of joy,
When you wipe my tears, wipe them dry,

I’ve seen you now, I’ve seen, I’ve seen you now,
When you were gone, I still continue to dream now.

Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

Casual Raiders, A Tale To Tell

Casual Raiders,  a tale to tell,
Sound the alarm, ring the bell,

We started with an idea,  a vision, 
A true kinship of people, without division,

Loyalty is something that cannot be taught,
Good people above good players we sought,

Many answered my plea, my call,
To pick eachother up when we fall,

We filled our ranks, we steadily grew,
Conquering many challenges with our crew,

A kinship was born, we are here to stay,
Leaving behind people, mean and fey,

Casual Raiders,  taking everyone along,
This is our kinship,  it’s where we belong.

Wandering

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody knows me or hears my cries,

My goals are vague, my story tragic,
My dreams are of a world full of magic,

I dug myself in this hole, there’s no escape,
This life is without a structure or shape,

So many paths and so many choices,
Entrenched in this mist, so many voices,

Opportunities squandered and lost,
Deep in debt, I cannot pay this cost,

In this darkness, I cannot see a way out,
Mute in this dungeon, I cannot shout,

My pride will be the end of me,
They can’t help, if they can’t see,

Burried in my woes, punished for the crime,
Smoking my life away, one puff at a time,

My words and rhymes are all I have left,
My eyes filled with tears, alone I wept,

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody cares, nobody even tries.

‘Tis better to have loved and lost

They said ‘Tis better to have loved and lost, they lie,
It left a hole in the heart,  those tears never dry,

Slowly and steadily I drifted away, 
In this labyrinth, I lost my way,

Slithering serpents, monsters I must face,
With little to no hope to win this race,

I scratched,  clawed,  tried to climb out,
To wake up from nightmare, darkness about,

Because giving up is not in me,
Resilience of a man, born free,

Hurts made me but stronger, I’m alive,
Learned to live on the edge and thrive.

A Tale of Casual Raiders

Hello, let me tell you a story tonight,
About our kinship, of it’s glory and might,

Casual Raiders is the name of our kin,
Casuals and hardcores, together for the win,

It started with pugs, with a vision in sight,
A community of players, close-knit and tight,

Then craters and trophy collectors joined our ranks,
We accepted amazing healers, dps’ers and tanks,

Slowly and steadily it grew,
Having fun like I never knew,

Raiding daily, facing challenges head on,
Estelali and by his side mower of lawn,

The love for Tolkien forever in heart,
Always together and never apart,

If you’re wondering what this kin is about,
We laugh,  we smile,  we raid,  we shout,

To be with us, you gotta have a thick skin,
We are a casual kin,  we’re not mean within,

As long as you’re respectful, you’re free,
You are welcome to join raids or chill in Bree, 

Our kin is friendly and a safe place,
After raids we like to do a DoS race,

We got creepy Wednesdays and throwback Thursdays,
Orthanc Fridays and Ereborian Saturdays and Sundays,

On top of it, we love our surprise raids and runs,
Rift and DN, OD and BG, and other classical ones,

We love taking the first timers along,
Their happiness is music to our song,

All these rhymes and verses I wrote,
I still think about my abandoned boat,

Roaming Middle-earth from Gondor to Bree,
On Brandywine, Casual Raiders is the place to be,

The haters are gonna always hate,
But hate doesn’t make anyone great,

It’s about inclusion and not exclusion,
Join us and draw your own conclusion.

Cycle of death and birth

Oh you of weak mind,
Forever in pursuit,
Unable to find,

Running after lust,
Nothing to hold on,
Lost in a pile of dust,

No reason or rhyme,
Mindless living existence,
Guilty, absent crime,

Nightmare or a tragic tale,
No Princess or evil Queen,
Drinking tears from holy grail,

Think and think I must,
This mindful mind singing,
Mysterious children of stardust,

They explore, invent and make,
Innovate and improve upon,
Some are giving, while others take,

Their humanity and compassion,
Their small acts of kindness,
Falling in love and passion,

This beautiful life and earth,
Our small pale blue dot,
This cycle of death and birth,

Oh you curious of mind,
Never stop the pursuit,
What you seek, may you find.