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Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Would be or what should be,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the choices,
Secret vices and the voices,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I lose myself in the music,
electronic and acoustic,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I stare at the canopy of the sky,
Beautiful sober, marvelous high,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Deep as Nile or like a moon rise,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Her imminent betrayal, her lustful lies,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about ending it,
Faking it and pretending it,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I want to grow wings and fly,
Courage to defy gravity and deny,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the infinite earth,
Rewind life back from death to birth,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Times are difficult and hard,
Lethally wounded and scared,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Close your eyes and feel,
Someone to tend you and heal,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone might try to become the one,
Bringing some joy in life and some fun,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
You let your guard down,
Joker dressed up as a clown,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Twisted emotions just take a hold,
Going off script, not doing what you’re told,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is a fairy tale,
Sitting with a pint of ale,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is not a fairy tale,
You may fall and often fail,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone could use a hand,
Needing your help to stand,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Do good without a reward,
Pen is mightier then the sword,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Stop and sit and ponder and think,
Close eyes and open them to blink,
As I lay some truth down in these verses,
Infinite creations in infinite multiverses,
Yet here you are a conscious being,
All observing, all seeing,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Who I would be? who I should be?

Love Was In The Air

When love was in the air,

You smiled without a care,

 

And you were happy and gay,

You thought she was here to stay,

 

And the world was turning right,

When you finally held her tight,

 

You looked into her eyes green,

She was your princess, your queen,

 

The fire of love burnt hot,

And you wanted to tie the knot,

 

But then love was gone from air,

She betrayed you without a care,

 

And you were sad and cried,

You couldn’t forgive her even if you tried,

 

And the world stopped turning,

The fire stopped burning,

 

She was no princess, no queen,

Just a characterless girl in her tween,

 

You weren’t able to tie the knot,

You let her free bit forgot her not,

 

Now oxygen is in the air,

With some pollution also there,

 

And you are happy and gay,

You see the world and it’s shades of grey,

 

Your mind expands day and night,

You talk of multiverses and galaxies bright,

 

Thinking of all the places you’ve been,

Wondering, “what does it all mean?”,

 

Found the answers I sought,

“It’s about the journey, forget it not”

My Story

You may think you do, but you dont,
Know me, who I am and who I’m not,

Person you know is but an illusion,
Dont pretend to escape this dillusion,

This is my creation, my design,
An enigma you cannot define,

But don’t you dare think that I am lost and living a lie,
You will never understand me no matter how hard you try,

But this is how it’s supposed to be,
Trust me you do not want to know me,

You won’t be able to handle this reality,
I am eminence and this my cult of personality,

I am just not your typical good guy,
There is more to me then getting high,

But I don’t care to  explain myself to you,
Your perception of me is not true,

You are free to believe what you want,
Happy sometimes,  life is sometimes gaunt,

I stand in front of you in living colors,
Honest to the core, clearing blurs,

It’s not your place to judge me,
You do not know anything about me,

You do not know what I have been through,
You dont really want to know the truth, do you?

There was once a happy guy,
a nice guy, hence not a crappy guy,
who fell in love with a beautiful girl,
a dutyful girl, her hair in curl,
Her smile made him smile,
Her unique style, eyes deeper then nile,
They kissed eachother, missed eachother, 
Day and night, gay and bright,
In eachothers sight, their lives changed,
Feelings of love, blessings from above, 
They planned their future life,
As husband and wife,
The summer of joy,
They became the reason of life,
In season of joy,
A younger girl, an older boy,
Deeper then deepest oceans, taller then the tallest mountain,
The immortal love reigns,  
Spreading joy and no pain, 
They went to mountains tall and wide, 
No one to see them, no rules to abide, 
With god of love on their side,
They accepted their fate,  
Became eachothers mate,
They married eachother,
Through thick and thin, carried eachother,
He built a small house for her, a spouse to her
He wrote about her, thought about her, 
She inspired him, desired him, 
Admired him, they grew together,
But then changed the weather,
The winds of winter came,
Extinguished their flame,
Killed passion, 
Killed compassion,
Killed their desire,
To hold on, killed the fire,

She betrayed him with no mercy,
Wounded him for world to see,

His trust broke, a hurt bloke,
From the dream he woke,

Into reality and it’s brutality,
The fairy tale came to its finality,

His dreams shattered, his heart battered,
He was fool to think he mattered,

A cursed soul wandering about,
Drenched in so much pain and doubt,

He slept around and started drinking,
Did terrible things without thinking,

His life began spiraling down,
In hurtsville and disaster town,

Then something happened, he took control,
Right back from the edge,  he began to roll,

The experience forever changed him,
Absent love, a reaping grim,

A spec of former self, a shade,
Refusing to give up and fade.

So now you know my story,
Reality of life with no glory.

Gone

life to love but love is no more,

life goes on, get to the shore,

ocean of love, and the boat she took,

swim or die, no peter pan here, no hook,

heart of ice, heart of fire,

heart will break, till you kill the desire,

fighters will stay, quitters quit,

be man of steel, just survive this hit.

 -Ali

A Love Story

It was a cool winter evening of December, he had finished his dinner and came to his computer..He was very excited and happy about something..He had thought of it during the day and he couldn’t wait to share it, share it with someone he had started to like..He turned on his computer, logged on to Facebook and msn and waited..After some minutes , she came online, she who he secretly fancied but was afraid to express his feelings and conflicted because there was someone else, someone else on his and her side..He loved somebody, loved somebody for two years, at least that’s what he thought..But now what was this new feeling, this new sensation, this new thrill, this new emotion..why he preferred talking to her instead of her..But he didn’t think things through and just followed his feelings..

Z and He had great two years..Seemed fate just wanted them to be together..He knew her for couple of years but then He came to another country and lost contact..One spam email got them talking after a year of silence, they talked, they flirted, they liked, they fell for each other..It was beautiful..He teased her..She teased him..They were happy..She was shy, he was bold..she began to trust him..they talked on phone, she sent him pictures..Her eyes were eyes of a lover, she was beautiful, he was in awe..They video chatted..Her first video chat with any guy..She was nervous, he appreciated it..World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..But then some bumps came..they argued..she was stubborn and he too..arguments increased..the lovely talks became less, the doubts gathered like clouds, clouding the judgment, clouding the mind, insecurities..questions about future and each other .and they fought..they fought..they fought allot .they fought on chats, they fought on sms’s, they fought on phone..The fights made him want to not talk with her..He distanced his self..She became sad..He didn’t care..She became silent..She cried..He ignored..He didn’t appreciate her care..He started liking someone else..He did her wrong..Her trust broke..She found about the other girl, she cried..she wept..her world shook, her heart broke, her life halted..but he didn’t care..He did her so wrong..Promises he broke..He did her so wrong..Lies he told..He did her so wrong..He left her for this new person..And He did her so wrong..

But he didn’t see the future, he didn’t know how it will come back to him..He was living in the moment..She came online and they started the video chat, it was the 31st of December, New Years Eve, they talked, they had fun, they enjoyed the night together, then he told her he wanted her to join his new group called The KliQ..She was so excited about this, she gladly joined, he showed her the sign..The promised KliQ 4 Life..They talked the next day, and the next day and the day after that..They flirted, they teased  they liked each other  they fell in love, they left the someone else in their lives , they became one, they celebrated valentines day, her parents disapproved, she wanted to end, he fought for her with her, he won the fight, they kept it secret, they fell more deeper in love, year passed, she went to university, they had better opportunity ty to talk and grow with each other  he woke her up everyday, she slept looking at her every night  he looked at her as she studied, she talked in his year when he slept..he became jealous of her friends, he felt ignored, she made it up to him..he appreciated..she showed interest in Islam, he taught her..she converted to Islam..life was great..they couldn’t have enough of each other..World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..But then some bumps came..they argued, he was sometimes unreasonable and she was too careless..bad feeling developed..she told him she lied about converting..he was disappointed..he started talking with Z, regretting his choice..she was disappointed and angry..but they solved..this was their special ability .they got angry but they resolved their problems..he again broke off all communications with Z, he swore fidelity  they carried on..years passed, their love grew..but her carelessness didn’t stop..she slept in arms of other guys..he was angry..she apologized..he forgave her..he committed a shameful act he regretted..he hid it from her..they carried on..she got tired of distance, she wanted to meet..she didnt realize how much he wanted to meet..but opportunity just never came..his strong outer layer gave her wrong impression..she complained, he hated the complains, they fought, they argued..but they made up, they carried on..he made her a special video featuring celebrities and friends for her birthday, she was in tears of joy..he sang her songs and she smiled..he didn’t Skype her often because he just couldn’t look at her and not want to tear up the screen and bring her out of it into his arms..she didn’t understand..the fights continued..but they made up..they carried on..he began to change for her..he became easier..she wanted to do au pair to meet him, he was happy, he worked hard and saved up money..they finally met after 4 years..and they were glad, they hugged and kissed and held hands..they put a picture on Facebook and their friends loved it..it was a dream come true, a true love come to fruition..a tale from the book..they told each other all their wait and sacrifices were worth it, worth it for that one moment when her face was in his hands and their eyes were in tears..they gave each other clean slate, a fresh start, a fresh continuation of an old ancient true love..they were glad and merry and gay..and World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..He came back home but then the road came to a sudden end..no warning , no speed bump..

He was gone and she was alone again, she missed him but he wasn’t there to hug her no more or to kiss..she missed him..she was weak, M came into her life..he was so nice..he made her smile..she started liking him..he was not him, but he was there, there right in front of her..he said she is not her type but he lied..she started really liking him, he took her for a ride on his bike..she loves bike riding..she missed him..but M was there, she was weakest, she slipped, she fell, she let him on, he was far..he had no job..she couldn’t wait no more..she had to think about her future..she had to worry about her life..love just wasn’t enough no more..she began to date him..he sensed something and called her..she cried and promised to never see him again..she lied..he still believed her and forgave her..he read her email..he was shocked to discover the content..he found out..he confronted her..she didn’t deny, she didn’t refuse, she was a different person..he cried..he wept..his world shook, his heart broke, his life halted..but she didn’t care..She did him so wrong..Promises she broke..She did him so wrong..Lies she told..She did him so wrong..She left him for this new person..And She did him so wrong..

His past came back to him, what he did to Z, she did to him..Karma, Justice..

Never promise someone if you do not intend to honor that promise! and Never break a heart!

Move On

You gotta move on,

dont be a moron,

you have plenty to live for,

friends and family who you care for,

past is a lesson, present the choice,

future you have to make, just follow the voice,

put all the sorrow and grief aside,

you got nothing to be ashamed of, you got nothing to hide,

you had some great moment,you had a fun ride,

time to move on, time to decide,

people change, people make mistakes,

now close this chapter and move on for heaven sakes,

you have a good life, 

one day you will find love, you will have a wife,

for that future you have to survive,

this heartbreak, this betrayel, this lie,

so move on my friend,

this is the beginning, not the end,

everything that comes is god sent,

precious is now the time spent,

you have been shit on,

you have been lied to and quit on,

she doesnt care for you or she would return,

let her go, relax, let her run,

let her fly, let her go by,

wave her good-bye….wave…her…good-bye.

 -Ali

Enough

The eyes have cried enough,

Ali you have tried enough,

There is nothing left to save,

Buddy just give a final wave,

All that love has become weak,

What do you want, what do you seek,

She has moved on, she doesnt want to speak,

To you she belonged,

You have been wronged,

Its time you let go,

And let the time flow,

All the wounds will be healed,

Just some hugs from friends is all you need,

Nevermind you will find someone like her,

No wait, hope you never find someone like her.

– Ali

The End

What once was mine is not anymore,

Where love was once, love is no more,

 

I had a dream,

dream of love,

love which was with you, 

you who stole my heart, 

heart which i gave you, 

you who took it,

it was yours,

yours was mine,

mine was a dream,

dream that was crushed,

crushed and shattered,

shattered the heart,

heart that was broken,

broken into million pieces,

pices which were scattered,

scattered to never assemble again,

again i will not love, love which i held dear,

dear you were to me, 

to me you belonged,

belonged to eachother,

eachother’s soulmates,

soulmates who parted ways?

ways that should be together, 

together we didnt end up,

end up, ended, we ended,

you ended,

ended the love, 

love that you promised, 

promises that you broke,

broke my hope,

hope which i had, 

had till the last,

last,

atlast i quit,

quit the dreams,

quit the hope,

quit you did, 

quit on me,

good bye my friend

may you have a peacefull end

-Ali

The world doesn’t stop turning

The world doesn’t stop turning,

but the fire of love still keeps burning,

should i keep holding or just move on,

is there still hope or is it all gone,

 

time will tell, time will solve this mystery,

it is not easy to erase all this history,

i have suffered enough from this pain,

i do not know if my pain will have some gain,

 

i am not as strong as people choose to believe,

i can feel pain too but people cant conceive,

what should i do, what is the right path to take,

was it love or was it all just fake,

 

i am angry , i am confused, 

was i played, was i used,

i am down and destroyed and abused,

if it was love then why was i refused,

 

 -Ali