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Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

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The Last Goodbye

Your eyes, deep, sexy and green,
You were in the last year of teen,

 

Your voice was music to my ear,
You were far, yet always so near,

 

So started this journey of you and me,
A gamble with fates and our destiny,

 

Many differences were overcome, compromises made,
It seemed like our love would just never fade,

 

The long Skype calls, the pleasure of sleepless night,
The joy, the happiness, the kisses, hugs tight,

 

But retrospectively everything looks nice,
There were many troubles in that paradise,

 

A strong heart but many times you broke it,
I believed the lies when you spoke it,

 

The sleepless nights were often spent crying,
When you didn’t reply me, I kept trying,

 

Like a lost puppy I kept coming back,
And the basic human intelligence you lack,

 

You made me feel miserable at times,
Maybe a twisted joke for your father’s crimes,

 

And the times when you would ignore me,
Broke me inside out, not even restore me,

 

Fighting with you, day and night,
Drenched in darkness without a light,

 

I lie in my poems about a fairy tale,
Being with you was torture but I didn’t bail,

 

That time when I called you and you passed the phone to your cousin,
You stood by laughing when he abused me for no reason,

 

And the time when you slept in arms of a friend,
Your betrayals started then and continued till the end,

 

All the money I wasted on the gifts I sent,
You stayed with me until I paid your rent,

 

And then you saw another man with money,
And you pursued him, being sweeter then honey,

 

You forgot four years of thick and thin,
You broken the promises for a temporary win,

 

You forgot the times I did save you,
And all your lies that I forgave you,

 

So here is a last goodbye, you’re gone,
It took me a while, but I finally moved on.

November Rain

I have never loved anyone as much I have loved you,
My intentions were pious, my feelings were true,   

 

As I think back at all the times, the memories pass before my eyes,
The flings end and are forgotten but the love that was true never dies,   

 

There came many after you but your thought was always in my head,
Still sometimes I think about you when I sleep alone in my bed,   

 

I often wonder if you are also thinking of me and  do you cry,
Do you still hold on my things, would you come back, would you try,   

 

I will forgive you and forget and I will hug you tight and I will kiss you deep,
The sun will shine on us, as ours eyes will meet as we begin to weep,   

 

The fate has played a mortal game with us, the destiny brought pain,
We are wandering on our seprate paths, lost in this november rain.

Happy Ending

From the verse of dreams I woke up,

Into reality, crying and all choked up,

With tears running down my face,

My thoughts graced with her face,

I hate her, I love her,,

I hate that I still love her,

Then the ego took over,

Its broken, unfixable, its over,

But these dreams are never ending,

What could’ve been my happy ending.

For Me?

Wish I didnt have to do it,
There is no chance to avoid it,
They said I was mad to do it,
But this is what fate had for me,  

This cursed life on the run,
Sweating under the sun,
Mourning while holding a gun,
There is no escape for me,  

I run and death follows,
Betrayed by all my fellows
No goodbyes and no hello’s,
There is no friend in need for me,  

I remember when life was pleasing,
Enjoyed being fun and appeasing,
Flirting with them and teasing,
Now there is no savior for me,  

These hardships, twists and turns,
To kindle that fire which burns,
A fire of passion, a job that earns,
In crisis, is there any hope for me?  

I am broken, confused and lost,
Army of devils, no heavenly host,
Willing to endure and suffer the most,
Is there any atonement for me?

Enlightened

Cursed is the heart, hurt, broken and dark,

burnt, destroyed, played, still carries the spark;

 

Storms of destruction, change, are weighing again,

the liars, the heart breakers, are playing again;

 

Its a game of love, you win or you die,

a fool to pursue,a fool to never try;

 

Trust in this world of deception and illusions,

perfect lives, beautiful wives, mere delusions;

 

So now wake you up, enlightened, open your eyes,

to broken trust, promises, and not so good byes;

 

She is gone, left you, but you are still here,

forget her, forgive her, move on I dare.

Cursed Heart

Once again here, you are sitting alone,

with tears in your eyes, wet, crying,

once again betrayed, she is gone,

didn’t matter if you held or kept trying,

 

falling in love, your biggest mistake,

believing the liars, their feelings fake,

giving your everything, nothing you take,

when will you learn, learn for heavens sake,

 

but “the world doesn’t stop turning”,

the fire of love and passion is out,

its flame extinguished, not burning,

I was a fool, I was played no doubt,

 

So how are you going to trust again,

what will you do to end this pain,

what did you lose, what did you gain,

you are lost, your mind going insane,

 

how are you going to turn this around,

lost your heart, never to be found,

the depth of ocean, no light, no sound,

a curse follows you, a hells hound.