Here we go. Another journey is about to begin. The same excitement, the same rush but still a familiarity of the paths that lay ahead. As I sit here in the waiting area, waiting for the gates to open, the memories of my last trip come rushing through my head. I have often described that experience as a big life changing event. There was a me before that trip and there was another me after it. Who knows what experiences await me this time around. Memories, memories are tricky, we remember what we want to, often we remember things different than the actuality of the events. I wonder if my memories are but a fairy tale, concocted by my mind, to ease the events that followed. Maybe that’s how I want things to be remembered, remember the good and forget the bad. But does it matter? Does it matter if my memories are true or false? Does it really matter?
I don’t think it matters. In this short life, why dwell on the bad. Why not remember things as you would have wanted things to go. Reality is overrated, so why not create your own fairy tale in your head. Why not live in fantasies of your own creation. Why not just remember the good parts.
I think it matter. The bad experiences are lessons taught by life. By forgetting them, you could forget the lesson and make same mistakes. Reality is not overrated, because in fantasies you’re always the winner, always the hero. The White Knight of your own stories, your own creation. Why forget what hurt you.
Contradictions, conflicting thoughts, the battle of ideas, the war between the two sides. Thus is my life and always has been, sometimes naive, living in fantasy, sometimes a realist, trying to make sense of it all. I guess I fall in the middle road because I understand the appeal of both sides. I can’t blame someone or myself for remember the fantastical version of my experiences, but I just can’t forget the reality of the events that shaped my life and the lessons learnt, my trials by fire, which moulded the person I am today.
So here’s to another adventure, another journey, a new experience, to new memories. Cheers!
When will you open your eyes and think,
Close them and open again to blink,
A dark veil is covering your mind,
Diverting you, not letting you find,
Distracted by materialism, you are sinking deep,
Your tears are stolen, you cannot weep,
Going through same routine, day in and day out,
Afraid to ask, never wondering what’s it all about,
Pursuit for happiness became a lust,
Forgot the time when you were fair and just,
The meaning of life is lost,
Roots were reached by the frost,
No savior to save you know, in this void,
You bury your woes in your iPhone and Android,
Words lost their meaning, emotions gone,
Now for everything you have an emoticon,
Towards your end, you’re slowly drifting,
The world revolves around, axis shifting,
In this hopeless night, you kindle fire,
You open your eyes when the need is dire,
In flowing current, you struggle against the tide,
You’re ready for change, you cannot hide,
The winds are changing, a revolution born,
Rally the troops, blow the horn,
You opened your eyes and you thought,
Explored the world and the answers you sought.