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Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

I see you now

I see now, I see you, I see now,
When you’re gone, I dream now,

When I was happy and the world was bright,
When you were in my arms, hearts delight,

Oh my lord what happened, you left,
My heart was stolen, it was a theft,

Who can save me now, I wonder,
Will I go on and repeat this blunder,

It is hard to smile now, it is so hard,
Give me some stregth, be my guard,

Oh lord of mine, where are you,
I look up in pain, at that sky blue,

When I am sad, alone and I cry,
A part of me just wants to die,

But when I think of you, and the world about,
I forget my meaningless life, and my doubt,

You are great, greatest of all,
You will save me , when I fall,

Oh my lord, oh my lord, oh my lord,
I will spread your word, absent sword,

I sing songs of happiness, songs of joy,
When you wipe my tears, wipe them dry,

I’ve seen you now, I’ve seen, I’ve seen you now,
When you were gone, I still continue to dream now.

Wandering

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody knows me or hears my cries,

My goals are vague, my story tragic,
My dreams are of a world full of magic,

I dug myself in this hole, there’s no escape,
This life is without a structure or shape,

So many paths and so many choices,
Entrenched in this mist, so many voices,

Opportunities squandered and lost,
Deep in debt, I cannot pay this cost,

In this darkness, I cannot see a way out,
Mute in this dungeon, I cannot shout,

My pride will be the end of me,
They can’t help, if they can’t see,

Burried in my woes, punished for the crime,
Smoking my life away, one puff at a time,

My words and rhymes are all I have left,
My eyes filled with tears, alone I wept,

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody cares, nobody even tries.

Cycle of death and birth

Oh you of weak mind,
Forever in pursuit,
Unable to find,

Running after lust,
Nothing to hold on,
Lost in a pile of dust,

No reason or rhyme,
Mindless living existence,
Guilty, absent crime,

Nightmare or a tragic tale,
No Princess or evil Queen,
Drinking tears from holy grail,

Think and think I must,
This mindful mind singing,
Mysterious children of stardust,

They explore, invent and make,
Innovate and improve upon,
Some are giving, while others take,

Their humanity and compassion,
Their small acts of kindness,
Falling in love and passion,

This beautiful life and earth,
Our small pale blue dot,
This cycle of death and birth,

Oh you curious of mind,
Never stop the pursuit,
What you seek, may you find.

Talibans

These animals pretending to be humans on earth,
Destroying our lives,  killing our children who want to learn,
Crying  parents who raised them since birth,
Our students and teachers they want to burn,

 

Shock is a small word for what we feel,
Who will tend to this wound, how will we heal?

 

I know not everything but I know this is not the Muslim way,
You will burn in hell for this,  for this you will pay,

 

The Prophet said children were flowers of Paradise,
But you killed them,  you animals in disguise,

 

My sadness turned to anger and I can’t rhyme,
But you need to be eradicated for this horrendous crime,

 

You are cowards, a shame on the face of humanity,
Who will help, who will end this insanity?

 

I cry and I scream and I scream and I cry,
I will fight you,  I may not win but I will try,

 

I am small,  I have nothing but my pen,
But I will walk bare handed in the wolves den,

 

Then there are some who want to justify this act,
Better come not near me if you want you body parts intact,

 

Whether you are talibans, AL Qaeda or ISIS,
Faces of evil, bringers of demonic vices,

 

How life on earth has become so complicated now,
But let’s end this madness,  let’s make a vow,

 

To stand against these murderers of innocence,
Take my hand and let’s create a fence,

 

People of earth United as one,
It’s not impossible, it can be done,

 

Against these monsters,  these soulless puppets of disgrace,
It won’t be easy,  death never is, but these demons we must face,

 

These children slayers pretending to be humans on earth,
Killing dreams of parents who raised them since birth.

ISIS

A new threat to world security has risen, at least that’s what we are being told. And it might even be true, if you see the videos that are being posted online, of masked men beheading everything that moves under Gods green earth. The threat is real, the enemy is real, the beheadings are real, at least they appear to be real, although with advancements in video technology, in a world where we have Hollywood movies depicting huge dragons, where there have been proven false videos of Bin Laden, the idea of fake videos is not a giant leap. But lets assume it’s real, would we stop for a minute and ask why? Why the rise of ISIS? Have some people lost their god damn minds and started beheading? Is it mental illness? Some virus of insanity that’s spreading in middle east? Some vampire infection where they need to drink blood? Are they drinking blood after beheading people? Should we kill them or put them in hospital to be treated? Excuse my attempt of humour but I learnt in science that every action has an equal and opposite reaction, so we have to ask ourselves, what is ISIS in reaction to? What’s the cause? You see the questioning is discouraged in the world we live in, we are just suppose to take their word for it. If you question, you are labelled a conspiracy theorist, terrorist apologist, and in some cases even called a terrorist. But questions we have and questions we should ask! Do they think that we don’t posses a mind? Do they think we are all stupid? Do they think we are all idiots? In a post-internet world where information flows freely on the web, they are truly kidding themselves if they think they can limit our knowledge. Do they think we don’t have the mental capability to connect the dots? Oh sir, but we do! Are we supposed to forget that Al-Qaeda was created by CIA? Are we supposed to forget Osama Bin Laden was a CIA agent and trained by them? Are we supposed to forget that suicide bombing was introduced to Islam by USA? Are we supposed to forget that Afghans were trained, armed and used by USA against Russia and then abandoned after the conflict was over in state of destruction and chaos? Or are we supposed to not know that 911 was an inside job? Do they think labeling us as conspiracy theorists is going to make us forget that fact? Or are we not supposed to know that the production of opium is at it’s highest after USA (“NATO” but lets not kid ourselves) took control of Afghanistan? Are we not supposed to know that US soldiers are cultivating and guarding opium and supplying it to the rest of the world? Or that there were no weapons of mass destruction in Iraq? That a million innocent people have been killed because of a war under false pretense? Or that tens of thousands innocent people lost their lives in Pakistan because of US drones? And now ISIS? So there are two possibilities, either it’s another creation of CIA to start new wars. “Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me”. So are we going to get fooled into another war? Or the second possibility that it’s a reaction to the actions of the USA. The meddling in internal affairs of other countries and aiding their puppets to become the leaders of those countries. Both possibilities are plausible but what can we do?

WE, the silent majority of this world, need to spread awareness and educate more and more people about the reality of the world we live in, WE need to unite under the banner of humanity, WE need to fight for the truth, WE need to to rise up and ask these questions, because only then can we find the answers and expose THEIR true agenda.

You Belong

When lines between right and wrong are blurred

When lies make up half of your world,

When your word doesn’t mean anything,

When your relationships all become a fling,

When flirting becomes the norm,

When you take advantage of your charm,

When you waste your time,

When you don’t have a dime,

When life becomes a struggle,

When you are just another muggle,

When wizardry leaves you,

When everybody believes you,

When say thing which are seldom true,

When the world spins,

When the poor man wins,

When she cries and doesn’t smile,

When the depth in her eyes is deeper then Nile,

When you held her hand, 

When you had to take off the wedding band,

When the memories flash by,

When your thoughts dry,

When you look back at life,

When you think about your struggle and strife,

When you think about your choices,

When you had let go and listened to the voices,

When you think your adventurous journey,

When you are the end of this tourney,

When you wonder about your legacy in life,

When you picked up that knife,

When you slit your wrists,

When blood gushed through closed fists,

When the soul left you,

When you saw the Truth you always knew,

When you saw the Light,

When you marveled at His sight,

When the long wait begun,

When his light encompassed the sun,

When the soul was returned,

When the fire once again burned,

When the records were handed,

When your wondered where you landed,

When the gates were opened,

When after life began to never end,

When you had all you ever wished,

When you went swimming and fished,

When you picked up this pen and started this song,

When you knew, you are exactly where you belong.

My Story

You may think you do, but you dont,
Know me, who I am and who I’m not,

Person you know is but an illusion,
Dont pretend to escape this dillusion,

This is my creation, my design,
An enigma you cannot define,

But don’t you dare think that I am lost and living a lie,
You will never understand me no matter how hard you try,

But this is how it’s supposed to be,
Trust me you do not want to know me,

You won’t be able to handle this reality,
I am eminence and this my cult of personality,

I am just not your typical good guy,
There is more to me then getting high,

But I don’t care to  explain myself to you,
Your perception of me is not true,

You are free to believe what you want,
Happy sometimes,  life is sometimes gaunt,

I stand in front of you in living colors,
Honest to the core, clearing blurs,

It’s not your place to judge me,
You do not know anything about me,

You do not know what I have been through,
You dont really want to know the truth, do you?

There was once a happy guy,
a nice guy, hence not a crappy guy,
who fell in love with a beautiful girl,
a dutyful girl, her hair in curl,
Her smile made him smile,
Her unique style, eyes deeper then nile,
They kissed eachother, missed eachother, 
Day and night, gay and bright,
In eachothers sight, their lives changed,
Feelings of love, blessings from above, 
They planned their future life,
As husband and wife,
The summer of joy,
They became the reason of life,
In season of joy,
A younger girl, an older boy,
Deeper then deepest oceans, taller then the tallest mountain,
The immortal love reigns,  
Spreading joy and no pain, 
They went to mountains tall and wide, 
No one to see them, no rules to abide, 
With god of love on their side,
They accepted their fate,  
Became eachothers mate,
They married eachother,
Through thick and thin, carried eachother,
He built a small house for her, a spouse to her
He wrote about her, thought about her, 
She inspired him, desired him, 
Admired him, they grew together,
But then changed the weather,
The winds of winter came,
Extinguished their flame,
Killed passion, 
Killed compassion,
Killed their desire,
To hold on, killed the fire,

She betrayed him with no mercy,
Wounded him for world to see,

His trust broke, a hurt bloke,
From the dream he woke,

Into reality and it’s brutality,
The fairy tale came to its finality,

His dreams shattered, his heart battered,
He was fool to think he mattered,

A cursed soul wandering about,
Drenched in so much pain and doubt,

He slept around and started drinking,
Did terrible things without thinking,

His life began spiraling down,
In hurtsville and disaster town,

Then something happened, he took control,
Right back from the edge,  he began to roll,

The experience forever changed him,
Absent love, a reaping grim,

A spec of former self, a shade,
Refusing to give up and fade.

So now you know my story,
Reality of life with no glory.

For Me?

Wish I didnt have to do it,
There is no chance to avoid it,
They said I was mad to do it,
But this is what fate had for me,  

This cursed life on the run,
Sweating under the sun,
Mourning while holding a gun,
There is no escape for me,  

I run and death follows,
Betrayed by all my fellows
No goodbyes and no hello’s,
There is no friend in need for me,  

I remember when life was pleasing,
Enjoyed being fun and appeasing,
Flirting with them and teasing,
Now there is no savior for me,  

These hardships, twists and turns,
To kindle that fire which burns,
A fire of passion, a job that earns,
In crisis, is there any hope for me?  

I am broken, confused and lost,
Army of devils, no heavenly host,
Willing to endure and suffer the most,
Is there any atonement for me?

Why?

Why why why why why why?
Why do we choose to do wrong? Why?
Why does wrong feel so right? Why?
What makes wrong, wrong?
Why do we stay where we dont belong? Why?
Why do we sin? Why?
Why do we never win? Why?
Why do we make mistakes? Why?
Why cant we do what it takes? Why?
Where is the limit? Where?
Why cant we end it? Why?
Why do ourselves harm? Why?
Why do we have a deadly charm? Why?
What do we gain? What?
Why suffer in pain? Why?
Why go down a destructive path? Why?
Why enter in lava to take a bath? Why?
Why smoke to get high? Why?
Why when we cant fly? Why?
Why not stop and try? Why?
Why choose to die? Why?
Why not see wrong and right? Why?
Why be darkness when day is bright? Why?
Why linger on earth when there is a sky? Why?
Why stand in silence when life passes by? Why?
Why give in to addictions? Why?
Why keep these self inflictions? Why?
Why get wet under the rain? Why?
Why repeat the same mistakes again? Why?
Why not learn a lesson? Why?
Why not make a confession? Why?
Why refuse the help and deny? Why?
Why think the end is nigh? Why?
Why do we have pleasure in pain? Why?
Why cross limits and not abstrain? Why?
Why have no desire for wealth? Why?
Why make efforts to destroy our health? Why?
Why have a death wish? Why?
Why live in a skirmish? Why?
Why are you alive? Why?
Why should you survive? Why?
When will it end and why? Why?
When will I just shut up and die? Die!