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I see you now

I see now, I see you, I see now,
When you’re gone, I dream now,

When I was happy and the world was bright,
When you were in my arms, hearts delight,

Oh my lord what happened, you left,
My heart was stolen, it was a theft,

Who can save me now, I wonder,
Will I go on and repeat this blunder,

It is hard to smile now, it is so hard,
Give me some stregth, be my guard,

Oh lord of mine, where are you,
I look up in pain, at that sky blue,

When I am sad, alone and I cry,
A part of me just wants to die,

But when I think of you, and the world about,
I forget my meaningless life, and my doubt,

You are great, greatest of all,
You will save me , when I fall,

Oh my lord, oh my lord, oh my lord,
I will spread your word, absent sword,

I sing songs of happiness, songs of joy,
When you wipe my tears, wipe them dry,

I’ve seen you now, I’ve seen, I’ve seen you now,
When you were gone, I still continue to dream now.

Breaking Bad

My head is just spinning,
Am I losing or am I winning,
I gave it all I had,

I am so furious and fast,
I don’t want to finish last,
I am breaking bad,

I write what I think,
I live life on the brink,
I am going mad,

All the thoughts in my head,
Celebrating life,  mourning the dead,
Life is happy sometimes,  sometimes it is sad,

Love always brought me pain,
I am drenched wet in the rain,
Loneliness makes me glad,

Alone on my own, a party in my mind,
Flowing towards the future,  not looking behind,
Supporting my family,  helping my dad,

My head continues to  spin,
I have no choice but to win,
I am satisfied with the life I had.

One Love

You understand the point,
As you light up the joint,
As the smoke enters your mind,
You look behind,
As your life flashes by,
You begin to fly, ever so high,
You start your journey, trippy,
You learn to love like a hippy,
Your laughs become loud,
As you are surrounded by a cloud,
You ask the questions that matter,
You see the multiverses and anti-matter,
You mind opens up and grows,
In your veins the blood flows,
Formed of atoms and molecules,
Created billions of years ago as fuels,
In heart of stars exploding,
Escaping the black holes imploding,
Your connection with the universe is old,
A peaceful calm takes a hold,
As you become so bold,
Questioning the facts you were told,
By the ancesters and their beliefs of old,
You go back to the origin,
Of life and of religion,
Like passenger on a time pigeon,
You become universal, forget your region,
You escape these rules, this prison,
You see the big picture, the grand vision,
The secrets of life are revealed to you
The secret of cosmos are unveiled to you,
You become one with the rest of universe,
You see atoms united and elements diverse,
You dive deeper and long to meet Him,
To talk, to question, to please, to greet Him,
The grand Architect, the Designer, the Creator,
Some know Him as Merciful, some as a hater,
The patient observer, the misunderstood,
The ultimte Judge of bad and good,
The Revealer of signs, the Beneficent,
The Evolver, the Magnificent,
You find your glory, your grace,
As you look upon His face,
Your heart begins to race,
Your thoughts pace,
Your mind sings the song,
Of ice and fire, you feel ever so strong,
You lose the desire, to return,
To the mortal world, you learn,
The truth about everything,
From the multiverses to stringthing,
It all makes sense to you,
You dont want to return but you do,
As your high wears off,
Your eyes weep tears of,
Joy and happiness and illumination,
Peace for all, no discrimination,
Your mind sparks in light, your face turns so bright,
‘One love, one heart, lets get toegther and feel alright’

Innocent Child

I used to be an innocent child,
timid, shy, fearful of the wild,

Always lost in my own world, a dreamer,
Afraid of the night, darkness, a screamer,

Always playing with toys, making my story,
Toy soldiers in war, fighting for honor and glory,

Then my world began to turn,
Amazed by science, I began to learn,

Meeting people from around the world opened my mind,
I started my pursuit of happiness, never looking behind,

Aspiring for greatness, I departed,
To complete the drawing I started,

Not to just survive the life but actually live it,
Not to just take from the world but give it,

To appreciate the architect, the Great Creator,
To put my thoughts on paper, to be a sub-creator,

Then my mind began the singing, in prose and poems,
Stories and characters developed and I gave them names,

Not knowing if anyone would bother to read them,
My fantasies and my stories, I began to need them,

They became a source of refuge, my peace,
My escape, my happy place, my release,

Will my story have a happy ending?
I took the test but the result is pending,

I used to be an innocent child,
Faced my fears and embraced the wild.

 

My Zen State

I have lived a long long life,
Full of ups and down and strife, 

There have been many versions of me,
Ali one, Ali two and Ali three, 

I made many friends along the way,
Some of them come and go but others always stay, 

But in my heart I’ve always been a loner,
Love to be by myself, alone, a stoner, 

Because alone I can unleash my restless mind and swim,
To search the heavens and the Earth, to find Him, 

When the cusriosity grows,
And the creativity flows, 

When the mind begins to sing,
Let it fly and attach no string, 

All the moments of life,
I think and I think back,
The good, the bad,
The white, the black, 

But this life is shades of grey,
Hunter sometimes, sometimes prey,
Sometimes sad, sometimes gay,
Sometimes deny Him, sometimes pray, 

This is not crisis of identity,
This cursed blessing is my penalty,
Its self inflicted, not from the Immortal Entity
This is, by design, my design, my eternity 

My choices mingled with my fate,
Chose to love and forgot the hate,
This is me, this is my zen state,
This wonderful life, feels so great,

My Everything

When I think of you, my world starts to change,

My heart beat rises, my blood begins to circolate,

My sun begins to shine, my world starts to revolve,

When I take your hand, my body in an amazing state,

My atoms inside molecules, I pity the loveless fools,

My day seems complete, my night in peace,

When I look into your eyes, I see your love,

My darling you are amazing, my baby I can relate,

My love for you is infinite, my life is great,

When I am with you, the world stops turning,

My time stands still, my birds begin to sing,

My goals become one, my heats accepts this fate,

When I talk to you, I consider you a part of me,

My heart merges with yours, our lives become one,

Our purpose becomes clear, it is time, its never too late. 

mY cHOICES

Sometimes life becomes so messed up and complicated. You start doubting your goals, your aims, your beliefs. You get side tracked, for better or for worst. If pursuit of happiness is the purpose of life, then why cant we just do what we want to and not worry about anything else? Not worry about providing for family and loved ones. Would it be selfish? But is selfish bad? Can you just do what your heart desires, what your mind seeks, what your souls yearns for? Not worrying about people who brought you up, raised you, provided for you, gave you everything you have since birth? Then I guess purpose of life is not all about your pursuit of happiness. Its about finding that middle ground, having some happiness in paying your debts, debts which last a life time, pursuing your new goals, aims and also providing for loved ones and family. Atleast thats what I think. Or thats what I have come to think by pondering on this question. You cannot ignore your debts and you cannot ignore the people you are indebted to. Sometimes I want to just pursue my goals, my aims, my freedom from all bounds and chains, but I cannot and I must not. Atleast not at the moment. There are people who look at me for support and I have to play that role, I have to live this life for them as well as for me. And there is no doubt in the happiness you receive when you help others, when you serve your parents, when you guide your brothers and sisters, when you try to fulfill their dreams about you. This happiness is different from the one you will have when you fullfil your own dreams, your own goals and aims. But we all have to live with the life we are born in. Many ignore responsibilities and escape to find their freedom but I do not agree with that. But its just my difference of opinion, the choice is entirely yours, whichever school of thought you subscribe to. My culture might have something to do with it but I dont believe its the only factor in my views and beliefs. I think of myself as a human being of planet Earth with my own beliefs. My beliefs are what make me, me. Although my heart desires freedom, my mind seeks it, my soul yearns for it, to leave all behind and go somewhere away from everyone else, secluded, merge with nature, to grow food to eat, to smoke, to let my mind travel through all the dimensions and verses and to put my thoughts, ideas and views on paper and find eternal happiness. BUT I will first pay my debts, serve my parents and provide for my loved ones and find the happiness in their happiness and pride.

This is my choice. You make your own…

 

I believed

I believed in a thing called love,
Eternal happiness, blessing from above,

I believed in a thing called loyalty,
Promises kept, unquestionable fidelity,

I believed in making up,
Talking things over, patching up,

I believed in destiny,
Power of love, not money,

I believed in goodness, in empathy,
Caring for fellow human, in sympathy,

I believed in truth of friendships,
Sticking together through all the hardships,

Find Her Gone

Been thinking so much and doing so little,
I am happy with life and not being bitter,  

The challenges that come, I face them head on,
People who leave, just do not belong,  

But life is so short, you can do no wrong,
Don’t live with regrets, just smile and move on,  

All the experiences, the flirts,
the choices, the voices, the hurts,
You can pick up the pen and make a song,  

Then you sing it for you, for her,  for them,
And fill the night sky with every gem,
To live and love and show them you’re strong,  

She smiles and takes your breath away,
You think of her in night and day,
Only to wake and find her gone.

Yeh Ishq

Phir dil may aya khayal tera, 

wo dil jo ab hua tera,  

 (Then again my heart thought of you,
the heart which now belongs to you)

yoon zindaghi muje phir uss moorh par layi,

ird gird sannata, andheri raat, ek gheri khai,  

 (So life brought me again to this place,
Surrounding silence, dark night, deep fall to face)

bas tu jo ho sath meray,

har simt khushian bakheray,  

 (Just when you are with me,
Spreading happiness everywhere)

kya socha tha aur kya ho gaya,

bas teri hi rahoon may kho gaya,

dil nay tuje chaha aur tera ho gaya,  

 (What did I thought and what happened instead,
Lost in your ways,
Fell in love with you and became yours)

tera khayal,

yeh tera kamal,

jo muj ko aya,

mujko bhaya,

mera dil tarpaya,

tuj par pyar jo aya,

dil nay tuje jana,

tuje mana,

meri jana,

yeh ashiyana,

mera khali dil,

tera muntazir,

teray liye meri jan,

meray saray arman,

bas tu hi mera dil meri jan,

ish may dooba,

tu meri mehbooba,

main tera ashiq,

yeh ishq ishq,

yeh ishq ishq,

yeh ishq ishq..

(Your thoughts,
your magic,
enchanted me
ensnared me,
my heart yearned,
my heart rejoiced,
I came to kow you,
I came to believe you,
oh my love,
this homely home,
my empty heart,
awaiting you,
for you my beloved,
my every wish,
just you are my life and my love,
drowned in your love,
you are my beloved,
I am your lover,
this true love,
this true love,
this true love..)