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Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

Once Again

So it started,  with a little affection,  little flirt,
Falling again,  forgetting the old hurt,

Not knowing where the road leads, 
Knowing the effort and dedication it needs,

So you start the journey once more,
Living in present,  like never before,

The fast heart beat,  the long awaited talks,
The dreams of love,  and long walks,

You smile,  when she smiles,
Forgetting the distance and long miles,

A connection established,  a bond made,
Affection or love,  eternal or bound to fade?

So began the long sleepless nights,
Full of energy,  sparkles and lights,

So begins another story,  a new tale,
Towards a happy ending or another fail?

Gone Girl

The long alone nights in bed,
Still her memories in head,

Keeping alive what is long gone,
Wondering if I would ever go on,

The bumpy road ahead is waiting,
Time to act is now so stop debating,

I don’t know where the fate is taking,
Pretend to know destiny,  keep on faking,

Hating to love her,  loving to hate,
Heart is drowning in this limbo state,

It’s messed up ain’t it when curses turn to praise,
Shivering in winter, praying for bright summer days?

Summer days, sun shining, her beautiful smile,
Her brown hair, her green eyes deeper then Nile,

Her fat nose,  her pale skin,
Her deformed teeth, her stupid chin,

It comes fast and faster it goes,
She was just one of many hoes,

Time to forget her for tonight,
Adios to memories and sleep tight.

Born This Way

So you are back at the same stop again,
Thinking about the same questions, still feeling the pain,

 

The mind singing, the pursuit, the pondering
The struggle, the loss, the wandering,

 

How to choose a path through so many choices?
How to find destiny through so many voices?

 

And the questions are never ending,
But I keep going on and pretending,

 

The fear of loss never leaves me alone,
Unable to let go someone who is gone,

 

And the empathy is out of control,
To the needy I want to give my all,

 

I once looked a man in his eyes and cried,
I feel for the living instead of the ones who died,

 

The suffering in world eats me inside,
Sometimes I want to join the rebels who defied,

 

The norms, the terrorists, the corrupts, the vip culture,
To slit their throats and open them up like a vulture,

 

Are these dark thoughts a necessarily evil?
Or find other ways to save the world that are more civil?

 

Why cant I stop hearing the screams?
Why do I suffer seeing those dreams?

 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggggggggg stop!
Stop before I drop,

 

The voices wont go away,
They are for life to stay,

 

Now open eyes and see the world in grey,
Put on that smile and be gay,

 

The light will shine on you as bright as day,
Be positive and stay away from fey,

 

Fidelity is hard, its easy to betray,
But Its your life, you were just born this way.

My Zen State

I have lived a long long life,
Full of ups and down and strife, 

There have been many versions of me,
Ali one, Ali two and Ali three, 

I made many friends along the way,
Some of them come and go but others always stay, 

But in my heart I’ve always been a loner,
Love to be by myself, alone, a stoner, 

Because alone I can unleash my restless mind and swim,
To search the heavens and the Earth, to find Him, 

When the cusriosity grows,
And the creativity flows, 

When the mind begins to sing,
Let it fly and attach no string, 

All the moments of life,
I think and I think back,
The good, the bad,
The white, the black, 

But this life is shades of grey,
Hunter sometimes, sometimes prey,
Sometimes sad, sometimes gay,
Sometimes deny Him, sometimes pray, 

This is not crisis of identity,
This cursed blessing is my penalty,
Its self inflicted, not from the Immortal Entity
This is, by design, my design, my eternity 

My choices mingled with my fate,
Chose to love and forgot the hate,
This is me, this is my zen state,
This wonderful life, feels so great,

My Everything

When I think of you, my world starts to change,

My heart beat rises, my blood begins to circolate,

My sun begins to shine, my world starts to revolve,

When I take your hand, my body in an amazing state,

My atoms inside molecules, I pity the loveless fools,

My day seems complete, my night in peace,

When I look into your eyes, I see your love,

My darling you are amazing, my baby I can relate,

My love for you is infinite, my life is great,

When I am with you, the world stops turning,

My time stands still, my birds begin to sing,

My goals become one, my heats accepts this fate,

When I talk to you, I consider you a part of me,

My heart merges with yours, our lives become one,

Our purpose becomes clear, it is time, its never too late. 

Random Thoughts In My Head

A pursuit of happiness,
The reason to be,
The reason to wake up in the morning,
The reason to see,
The beauty,  the nature,  the evolution,
Life survived for millions of years in every situation,
But no one knows how it got created,
In religious texts it’s stated,
That God created man,
But scientists have other theories,
But no one is certain or sure,
But I know one thing,
Empathy,  compassion for fellow being,
That’s what matters most,
The common people of this planet,
The farmers in their fields working,
The scientists in laboratories researching,
The students in universities learning,
Just keep the fire burning,
To keep a warm heart,  not cold,
Keeping traditions new and old,
Pondering,  questioning, along this ride,
Always having patience, tolerance inside,
To hear difference of opinion,
Helping people in need,
Doing a good deed,
Happiness you’ll receive,
Always be honest,  never deceive,
And let’s make this world a better place,
To save life, to save the human race.

Mind Singing: A unique sickness

I am just so sick and tired,
Of being always inspired,  

By all these goals,
Filling these holes,  

In my life and in my heart,
I just want to leave all behind to depart,  

And to go to a new land,
A meadow land, not a shadow land,  

But when will my adventure start,
Sitting here throwing the dart,  

When it never lands in the middle,
Life is not a question but a riddle,  

Whenever I am alone,  my mind races,
It paces,  it faces,  it chases,  

The answers, the dreams,
The agony, the screams,  

My infinite thoughts in an infinite universe,
The universe? No,  it’s a multiverse,  

From the smallest atomic particle to galaxies it goes,
My wandering mind never slows,
Everything is in constant motion it shows,
Expanding towards something or someone, no one knows,  

The questions of life, about life, the histories,
All these interesting, fascinating mysteries,  

Every choice creates a world parallel and new,
Talked by many but understood by few,  

I am a tiny speck of star dust in the grand scheme of things,
But my thoughts are infinite when my minds singing begins.

Yeh Ishq

Phir dil may aya khayal tera, 

wo dil jo ab hua tera,  

 (Then again my heart thought of you,
the heart which now belongs to you)

yoon zindaghi muje phir uss moorh par layi,

ird gird sannata, andheri raat, ek gheri khai,  

 (So life brought me again to this place,
Surrounding silence, dark night, deep fall to face)

bas tu jo ho sath meray,

har simt khushian bakheray,  

 (Just when you are with me,
Spreading happiness everywhere)

kya socha tha aur kya ho gaya,

bas teri hi rahoon may kho gaya,

dil nay tuje chaha aur tera ho gaya,  

 (What did I thought and what happened instead,
Lost in your ways,
Fell in love with you and became yours)

tera khayal,

yeh tera kamal,

jo muj ko aya,

mujko bhaya,

mera dil tarpaya,

tuj par pyar jo aya,

dil nay tuje jana,

tuje mana,

meri jana,

yeh ashiyana,

mera khali dil,

tera muntazir,

teray liye meri jan,

meray saray arman,

bas tu hi mera dil meri jan,

ish may dooba,

tu meri mehbooba,

main tera ashiq,

yeh ishq ishq,

yeh ishq ishq,

yeh ishq ishq..

(Your thoughts,
your magic,
enchanted me
ensnared me,
my heart yearned,
my heart rejoiced,
I came to kow you,
I came to believe you,
oh my love,
this homely home,
my empty heart,
awaiting you,
for you my beloved,
my every wish,
just you are my life and my love,
drowned in your love,
you are my beloved,
I am your lover,
this true love,
this true love,
this true love..)