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Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

The Journey Of Life

Sitting alone in a rainy day,

Tired of games, too bored to play,

Nothing left to do, no demons to slay,

No one to please, no one to obey,

 

Panic, disorder, crisis of identity,

Is someone out there, any entity?

 

In the world of grey, there is no black and white,

Darkness is everywhere, no hope here, no light,

 

In this scarcity of matter, the emptiness is atomic deep,

What is real or imagination, what to lose, what to keep,

 

Finding God in this infinite multiverse,

Athiests fool themselves, but why are religions diverse?

 

In the grand scheme of things, who am I?

Do I matter, or will I just fade and die?

Will someone remember, will they cry?

Thinking of a guy who used to get high,

 

Endless dreams shattered in endless screams,

But I am still here, dreaming the impossible dreams,

 

Fighting for a future that may never be,

But the real fun is in the journey you see.

Thoughts in My Head

Does she think of you, did she care?

Was it just, is it fair?

Memories of past haunt me in my sleep,

Sometimes I lay in bed awake and weep, 

Why cant we flip the switch and forget,

The pain, the hurt and the regret,

I smile and I drink and I dance and I hide, 

The wounds, the scars, the broken side,

I am too proud to return, to ever go back,

Have to look ahead, put life on a different track,

.different track

.different track

.different track

I am happy, I have moved on,

I believed in love but I was proved wrong,

Life without love is a happy life,

No headache or drama, freedom, no wife, 

Come party with me and enjoy this delight,

The sun is shinning and the day bright, 

No reason to be sad,

You are alive, dont be mad, 

Just smoke some pipe and be glad,

.be glad

.be glad

.be glad

Survival of the fittest is evolution,

The time has come for a revolution,

Rise, rise, rise and take it all, 

The time has come for the empire to fall,

Freedom and love for everyone,

Discriminate against no one,

Rise, rise, rise against the powers, 

Crush down and destroy all these towers,

The avalanche of love will sweep the world,

Join hands with me and lets save the world.

Evolve

“You are stuck with me for life”, he used to say..
But fact is nobody is stuck with anybody for life..
Life is like a river, flowing..it changes..air changes, climate changes, weather changes..everything changes..you change..the cells on your body change, old cells die and new cells are born to take their place, even your skin changes..you are not the same person you were yesterday..time changed you..time passes..endless flow which started from the beginning, if there was a beginning, and will continue till the end, if there is one..
Earth keeps revolving around the sun which keeps revolving around a blackhole which keep moving through time and space.. it doesnt stop turning, not for you, not for me, nor for any sage, any rich or poor, any prophet..everything is in motion..from cluster of galaxies amd their trillions of stars to the electrons inside an atom..if you stop, then the world leaves you behind..the universe leaves you behind..
Its wrong to expect things to be remain the same and same is true for people..people evolve, like everything else evolves..what we can do is just accept the changes and learn to live with them and evolve

Here at the top of world

Here at the top of world I see
I see buildings tall and cities
Cities and trees and birds whisper
Whispering songs of joy
Joy and love, these beautiful words
Words of peace and heart
Heart which is lonely alone
Alone in this time
Time is evolution
Evolution of heart and mind
Mind that is racing
Racing to face the challenges
Challenges which are in front
Front which I will confront
Confront and fight
Fight and survive
Survive and live
Live and breath
Breath the air
Air of fresh breeze and smoke
Smoke smoke i will not choke
Choke the bad memories
Memories that haunt
Haunt me inside out
Out of heart out of sight
Sight I love
Love is big word
Word or an illusion
Illusion which kills
Kills the desires
Desires which we have
We have and then we lose
Lose the faith
Faith which is essential
Essential to life
Life which I see
Here at the top of world I see

They are here

He woke up from a dream..good or bad he didnt know..it was a strange dream for it had roots in reality yet it was so alien to him..
He looked at wall clock while still laying in bed and saw it were 30 past 8..he turned to the other side to see the sun shinning bright..
He got up and sat on his bed..the memory of his dream still in his head..what did it mean, he wondered to himself..was it just a dream or a vision from future..he shook his head and got up from the bed..
He had plans today..he needed to go to university and study and get a hair cut and get water from his uncle’s house and exercise..
Exercise, he had been feeling his body aching at weird places and his back..he needed to get back in shape..sitting in front of computer and playing games and studying in his chair had taken a toll on his body..
He made himself breakfast..
Tomorrow was Eid, a happy festive day..he couldn’t wait to wear his new dress that his dad bought him..he was glad..he packed his back pack and left for the bus..
The sun was shinning hot..hotter then any other day..he went to the bus stop and sat and waited..he looked up at the sun through his sun glasses..it was bright and brilliant..the sky was bluish white with some cloud here and there..
He heard a weird sound that startled him..it was a strange hump sound..loud and deep..he got up looking around for the source but found none..he sat back again..
He pulled out his pipe from his pocket and filled it with tobacco..he began to smoke..and it was good..and relaxing..
The sound came again and he again looked around trying to find the source..he glanced again at the sun and then he saw it..
A small black dot..black or some other dark color..he kept staring at it as the object began to grow..becoming larger and larger by the second..perhaps some new italian space craft or international space station passing by Earth or or..he ran out of rational explanations in his mind as the strange sound once again originated from it..
He got up at once..he had seen it before..it was familiar to him but it shouldn’t have been..the object was the size of a whole football field hovering in sky..covering the sun slowly..the darkness spreading around him..
People started coming out of their homes looking up..fear in their eyes..screams and yells and curses..
Then a voice spoke in a language he knew not..He got scared and excited..

They were here!

A Memory

I am sitting here all alone,
thinking about you and the times gone,
I gave you everything i had,
but you still always made me sad,
there were so many times i wanted to leave,
but your tears always made me feel so bad,
it was my mistake to stay with you,
but i am glad It wasn’t me who betrayed you,

so now i move on and be free,
and leave you behind like a memory..

-Ali

Don’t Worry, Be Happy

Yes you have been left alone,
you are still standing here,
while she is gone,

the future seems to be in mist,
the meaning of life is foggy,
don’t worry, be happy, just resist.

 -Ali

Gone

life to love but love is no more,

life goes on, get to the shore,

ocean of love, and the boat she took,

swim or die, no peter pan here, no hook,

heart of ice, heart of fire,

heart will break, till you kill the desire,

fighters will stay, quitters quit,

be man of steel, just survive this hit.

 -Ali

A Love Story

It was a cool winter evening of December, he had finished his dinner and came to his computer..He was very excited and happy about something..He had thought of it during the day and he couldn’t wait to share it, share it with someone he had started to like..He turned on his computer, logged on to Facebook and msn and waited..After some minutes , she came online, she who he secretly fancied but was afraid to express his feelings and conflicted because there was someone else, someone else on his and her side..He loved somebody, loved somebody for two years, at least that’s what he thought..But now what was this new feeling, this new sensation, this new thrill, this new emotion..why he preferred talking to her instead of her..But he didn’t think things through and just followed his feelings..

Z and He had great two years..Seemed fate just wanted them to be together..He knew her for couple of years but then He came to another country and lost contact..One spam email got them talking after a year of silence, they talked, they flirted, they liked, they fell for each other..It was beautiful..He teased her..She teased him..They were happy..She was shy, he was bold..she began to trust him..they talked on phone, she sent him pictures..Her eyes were eyes of a lover, she was beautiful, he was in awe..They video chatted..Her first video chat with any guy..She was nervous, he appreciated it..World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..But then some bumps came..they argued..she was stubborn and he too..arguments increased..the lovely talks became less, the doubts gathered like clouds, clouding the judgment, clouding the mind, insecurities..questions about future and each other .and they fought..they fought..they fought allot .they fought on chats, they fought on sms’s, they fought on phone..The fights made him want to not talk with her..He distanced his self..She became sad..He didn’t care..She became silent..She cried..He ignored..He didn’t appreciate her care..He started liking someone else..He did her wrong..Her trust broke..She found about the other girl, she cried..she wept..her world shook, her heart broke, her life halted..but he didn’t care..He did her so wrong..Promises he broke..He did her so wrong..Lies he told..He did her so wrong..He left her for this new person..And He did her so wrong..

But he didn’t see the future, he didn’t know how it will come back to him..He was living in the moment..She came online and they started the video chat, it was the 31st of December, New Years Eve, they talked, they had fun, they enjoyed the night together, then he told her he wanted her to join his new group called The KliQ..She was so excited about this, she gladly joined, he showed her the sign..The promised KliQ 4 Life..They talked the next day, and the next day and the day after that..They flirted, they teased  they liked each other  they fell in love, they left the someone else in their lives , they became one, they celebrated valentines day, her parents disapproved, she wanted to end, he fought for her with her, he won the fight, they kept it secret, they fell more deeper in love, year passed, she went to university, they had better opportunity ty to talk and grow with each other  he woke her up everyday, she slept looking at her every night  he looked at her as she studied, she talked in his year when he slept..he became jealous of her friends, he felt ignored, she made it up to him..he appreciated..she showed interest in Islam, he taught her..she converted to Islam..life was great..they couldn’t have enough of each other..World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..But then some bumps came..they argued, he was sometimes unreasonable and she was too careless..bad feeling developed..she told him she lied about converting..he was disappointed..he started talking with Z, regretting his choice..she was disappointed and angry..but they solved..this was their special ability .they got angry but they resolved their problems..he again broke off all communications with Z, he swore fidelity  they carried on..years passed, their love grew..but her carelessness didn’t stop..she slept in arms of other guys..he was angry..she apologized..he forgave her..he committed a shameful act he regretted..he hid it from her..they carried on..she got tired of distance, she wanted to meet..she didnt realize how much he wanted to meet..but opportunity just never came..his strong outer layer gave her wrong impression..she complained, he hated the complains, they fought, they argued..but they made up, they carried on..he made her a special video featuring celebrities and friends for her birthday, she was in tears of joy..he sang her songs and she smiled..he didn’t Skype her often because he just couldn’t look at her and not want to tear up the screen and bring her out of it into his arms..she didn’t understand..the fights continued..but they made up..they carried on..he began to change for her..he became easier..she wanted to do au pair to meet him, he was happy, he worked hard and saved up money..they finally met after 4 years..and they were glad, they hugged and kissed and held hands..they put a picture on Facebook and their friends loved it..it was a dream come true, a true love come to fruition..a tale from the book..they told each other all their wait and sacrifices were worth it, worth it for that one moment when her face was in his hands and their eyes were in tears..they gave each other clean slate, a fresh start, a fresh continuation of an old ancient true love..they were glad and merry and gay..and World was happy, grass was green, birds sang, stars shinned, flowers blossomed, love was divine..He came back home but then the road came to a sudden end..no warning , no speed bump..

He was gone and she was alone again, she missed him but he wasn’t there to hug her no more or to kiss..she missed him..she was weak, M came into her life..he was so nice..he made her smile..she started liking him..he was not him, but he was there, there right in front of her..he said she is not her type but he lied..she started really liking him, he took her for a ride on his bike..she loves bike riding..she missed him..but M was there, she was weakest, she slipped, she fell, she let him on, he was far..he had no job..she couldn’t wait no more..she had to think about her future..she had to worry about her life..love just wasn’t enough no more..she began to date him..he sensed something and called her..she cried and promised to never see him again..she lied..he still believed her and forgave her..he read her email..he was shocked to discover the content..he found out..he confronted her..she didn’t deny, she didn’t refuse, she was a different person..he cried..he wept..his world shook, his heart broke, his life halted..but she didn’t care..She did him so wrong..Promises she broke..She did him so wrong..Lies she told..She did him so wrong..She left him for this new person..And She did him so wrong..

His past came back to him, what he did to Z, she did to him..Karma, Justice..

Never promise someone if you do not intend to honor that promise! and Never break a heart!