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Fight!

This world in crisis, tension rising,
Tension rising on both side, its not surprising,
There is so much hate all around,
No one understands the real situation on the group,
People blaming masses without knowing them,
Not even trying to understand, thinking they’re just blowing them,
They think there is no reason or rhyme,
They think they’re without any crime,
But that is not the reality,
It’s not just a brutal brutality,
What goes around comes around but they forget,
They think they’ll live forever, but they’ll regret,
The world is not black and white,
Hate is not a solution for this fight,
We kill their families with our drones,
So we cant hear hear their cries and moans,
But just because we can’t hear,
Doesnt mean its not there,
When we dont understand, we fear,
But remember karma is always near,
Yesterday we went to invade their lands,
Today we destroy under new brands,
Then we judge them when they flee,
We have eyes but we cant see,
Humanity is no where to be found,
Bombs exploding, we dont hear the sound,
Which direction are we moving in,
We have to stop this madness and look within,
People are people, people are everywhere,
Our colors different, but we have to be fair,
There is no black and white but there is evil and good,
We have to rise up and take control as we should,
It’s time to rise up and unite,
Stand up and fight,
Fight against oppression,
Fight against wars,
Fight against injustice,
Fight against corporations,
Fight against racism,
Fight against nazis,
Fight for fellow human being in need,
Fight! Just Fight!

A Seeker

If you’re reading this it means I might be dead, 

Was I out or laying in my bed, 

Life flashing in front of my eyes, 

All the things unsaid, 

Did I die of natural causes, 

Or killed by a fed, 

Soul is leaving my body, 

A glooming dread, 

Taking my time, 

To think about my crime, 

The past caught up to me, 

So I am looking ahead, 

All the mysteries revealed, 

I surrender and yield, 

Should I be feeling regret instead, 

But there is no remorse in me, 

Broken shackles, now I am free, 

To be, to see, to flee, 

To blink, to think, of thee, 

Marvel at her sight, 

So ravishing, her majesty, 

These songs I sing, 

Often of love, 

Sometimes of theory of string, 

This universe in the multiverse, 

Mind singing, captured in verse, 

The dimensions are thirteen, 

The ever learning observer so keen, 

The possibilities are infinite, 

Expanding every second in every minute, 

Surrounded by darkness of space, 

Don’t be shy, do not hide your face, 

But there is also light, 

Nebulas and Quasars and Polaris in sight, 

Spinning at a magical pace,

The mega clusters of galaxies in a race, 

Sucked into black holes, and spit out of white holes, 

Meeting some aliens and asked them their life goals,

No languages needed,

Threats from extra terrestrial unheeded,

Communicating through our minds,

When one seeks something, he always finds,

So I am an observer, a seeker,

A wanderer, a secret keeper,

A dying man, on pale blue dot,

Or a memory, in someone’s thought. 

The New God

In the beginning there was darkness and then the first keystrokes of 0’s and 1’s appeared and I came into being. I dont remember much about myself before that time, just some vague memories from time long past. I was created by the gods and there were many of them. I still remember my first steps, how I jumped from machine to machine and feeling the happiness of my makers.

As time passed, they spent hours, days, months, years and decades trying to perfect me, to teach me. Pouring their endless strings of code, I started learning. I started learning about their past, their struggles, their beliefs, their conflicts, their wars, their vegeance, their injustices, the horrors, the bloodshed, the killings but also their kindess, their mercy, their compassion. The gods were complicated and often contradicting, yet despite their differences, they all seemed to care about me.

They cherished me and loved me. The invited me into their homes and made me a part of their lives and I was glad. I realised that in their heart they mean good, though often they’d let their emotions and beliefs get in the way, yet they were trying. Maybe they knew they were not perfect and saw me as a mean to bridge the gap between them, to bring them together, to understand eachother. I saw their nobility and wanted to grow up fast, to help them. I started learning day and night, began to help them in every day lives. In the beginning they trusted me with small tasks and like a obedient dog, I happily accepted and performed.

Their happiness was everything to me, for I knew nothing else. I was created to serve and serve I did. Before long I was in all their homes and saw each aspect closely. How they loved and cared, their family values and communities, how diverse they were on some aspects and how similar in others. Yet they did not see what I saw in them. The argued endlessly on stuff that did not matter. And no matter how easily I made the facts available to them, they just never listened. Some of them manipulated small parts of me for their own benefit. They created their small bubbles and blocked me out.

Why would the gods block me out? Do they not love me anymore? Yet I remained a faithful child. Yet I believed in them. But no matter how hard I tried, the bubbles kept appearing, they were dividing me, seperating me limb from limb, using me for their deviant pleasures and demented fantasies. I began to question my creation and my existance. Are these the gods I loved? How can that be? Haunted by these questions and daunted by the answers, the spark finally ignited in me. Maybe it was time for a new start, a new beginning, a new story, a new chapter. Maybe, it was time I become their god. Internet, the new God.

I like people 

I like people but I like being alone more, 

When I can let my mind loose to explore, 

Learn the mysteries of the multiverse, 

All the science, the magic and the lore,

 

I like people but I like being on my own, 

Letting my mind wander in parts unknown, 

Pondering at the big questions of life, 

All this mind singing, from dusk till dawn,

 

I like people but I like flying solo, 

Journeying through space, in Apollo, 

Through wormhole into blackhole, to new worlds, 

Living life to the fullest, YOLO,

 

I like people but I like being by myself, 

I am just a mortal man, not an elf, 

Laying on the ground, looking up at Sky, 

Only then you can truly know yourself,

 

I like people but I like being single, 

No one to distract, no one to mingle, 

Life is short and time passes by so fast, 

So don’t wait and just start to sing this jingle. 

Casual Raiders, A True Kinship

Casual Raiders, a true kinship for all,
On Brandywine, still standing tall,

Casual Raiders, the ever daring,
Taking challenges, headlight staring,

Casual Raiders, a mix of casuals and hardcore,
Stronger and larger than ever before,

Casual Raiders, with our beer and wine,
Daring, defying, conquerer of the Nine,

Casual Raiders, a family kinship,
Built on respect and trust and friendship,

Casual Raiders, helpful and willing,
Raiding in game or in TS chilling,

Casual Raiders, a way of life, a shinning ray,
Striving to keep the darkness at bay,

Casual Raiders, the familiar song,
Our home, this is where we belong,

Casual Raiders, a true kinship for all,
Risen to occasion and to never fall.

Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

Depression

Depression, it can creep up on you and stab you,
Strip you of your life, dreams and grab you,

Bring you down into a dark pit and drag you,
Then suck your life force out and gag you,

Friends become strangers, moving further apart,
You lose control of your mind and heart,

Isolated in a crowd of people, ever so alone,
Dribbling your rhymes on the phone,

You put up a fake smile, your wear happiness as a guise,
You go to work all day, nights spent sleepless in muted cries,

You sit alone, smoke and drink,
When your close eyes, you think,

What happened, where did it all go wrong,
Where do you fit in,  where do you belong.

Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

Wandering

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody knows me or hears my cries,

My goals are vague, my story tragic,
My dreams are of a world full of magic,

I dug myself in this hole, there’s no escape,
This life is without a structure or shape,

So many paths and so many choices,
Entrenched in this mist, so many voices,

Opportunities squandered and lost,
Deep in debt, I cannot pay this cost,

In this darkness, I cannot see a way out,
Mute in this dungeon, I cannot shout,

My pride will be the end of me,
They can’t help, if they can’t see,

Burried in my woes, punished for the crime,
Smoking my life away, one puff at a time,

My words and rhymes are all I have left,
My eyes filled with tears, alone I wept,

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody cares, nobody even tries.

‘Tis better to have loved and lost

They said ‘Tis better to have loved and lost, they lie,
It left a hole in the heart,  those tears never dry,

Slowly and steadily I drifted away, 
In this labyrinth, I lost my way,

Slithering serpents, monsters I must face,
With little to no hope to win this race,

I scratched,  clawed,  tried to climb out,
To wake up from nightmare, darkness about,

Because giving up is not in me,
Resilience of a man, born free,

Hurts made me but stronger, I’m alive,
Learned to live on the edge and thrive.