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Let’s Pretend

Let’s pretend that the fairy tail never ends,
Let’s pretend that the heart mends,
Let’s pretend that the dream is still alive,
Let’s pretend that I am still that naive,
Let’s pretend she is still in my heart,
Let’s pretend we never fell apart,
Let’s pretend that I still believe in love,
Let’s pretend that there is still a God above,
Let’s pretend I still believe her lies,
Let’s pretend the soul never dies,
Let’s pretend I never picked up the drink,
Let’s pretend I never rolled back from the brink,
Let pretend there is a happily ever after,
Let’s pretend there is still joy and laughter,
Let’s pretend, I never picked up that pen,
Let’s pretend I am still hiding in my den,
Let’s pretend life has a meaning,
Let’s pretend it’s not demeaning,
Let’s pretend I never made a mistake,
Lets pretend, let’s just pretend for Gods sake.

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Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

I see you now

I see now, I see you, I see now,
When you’re gone, I dream now,

When I was happy and the world was bright,
When you were in my arms, hearts delight,

Oh my lord what happened, you left,
My heart was stolen, it was a theft,

Who can save me now, I wonder,
Will I go on and repeat this blunder,

It is hard to smile now, it is so hard,
Give me some stregth, be my guard,

Oh lord of mine, where are you,
I look up in pain, at that sky blue,

When I am sad, alone and I cry,
A part of me just wants to die,

But when I think of you, and the world about,
I forget my meaningless life, and my doubt,

You are great, greatest of all,
You will save me , when I fall,

Oh my lord, oh my lord, oh my lord,
I will spread your word, absent sword,

I sing songs of happiness, songs of joy,
When you wipe my tears, wipe them dry,

I’ve seen you now, I’ve seen, I’ve seen you now,
When you were gone, I still continue to dream now.

Fare thee well, my honey

When love is gone now, I think,
Was it worth it, or not, who can tell,
In these cries and woes, I slowly sink,
When my wings burnt, where I fell,

Where I dwell now, in a small town,
Shattered pieces, of my heart broken,
In these cries and wors, I slowly drown,
Would that it be a dream, I’d be woken,

When joy is gone now, my laughs are fake,
I am a shell now, of my former glory,
In these cries and woes, I slowly break,
Who’d know my tragic tale, my sad story,

How life is a mess now, absent dream,
Absent ambition, absent aim, absent fire,
In these cries and woes, I slowly scream,
When you were gone, I lost desire,

This mind singing, this pen and paper,
How I am broke now, I have no money,
My passing life, in smoke and vapor,
In these cries and woes, I ‘fare thee well oh honey’.

Wandering

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody knows me or hears my cries,

My goals are vague, my story tragic,
My dreams are of a world full of magic,

I dug myself in this hole, there’s no escape,
This life is without a structure or shape,

So many paths and so many choices,
Entrenched in this mist, so many voices,

Opportunities squandered and lost,
Deep in debt, I cannot pay this cost,

In this darkness, I cannot see a way out,
Mute in this dungeon, I cannot shout,

My pride will be the end of me,
They can’t help, if they can’t see,

Burried in my woes, punished for the crime,
Smoking my life away, one puff at a time,

My words and rhymes are all I have left,
My eyes filled with tears, alone I wept,

I am lost, wandering in this web of lies,
Nobody cares, nobody even tries.

Sometimes

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Would be or what should be,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the choices,
Secret vices and the voices,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I lose myself in the music,
electronic and acoustic,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I stare at the canopy of the sky,
Beautiful sober, marvelous high,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Deep as Nile or like a moon rise,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Her imminent betrayal, her lustful lies,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about ending it,
Faking it and pretending it,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I want to grow wings and fly,
Courage to defy gravity and deny,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the infinite earth,
Rewind life back from death to birth,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Times are difficult and hard,
Lethally wounded and scared,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Close your eyes and feel,
Someone to tend you and heal,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone might try to become the one,
Bringing some joy in life and some fun,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
You let your guard down,
Joker dressed up as a clown,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Twisted emotions just take a hold,
Going off script, not doing what you’re told,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is a fairy tale,
Sitting with a pint of ale,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is not a fairy tale,
You may fall and often fail,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone could use a hand,
Needing your help to stand,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Do good without a reward,
Pen is mightier then the sword,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Stop and sit and ponder and think,
Close eyes and open them to blink,
As I lay some truth down in these verses,
Infinite creations in infinite multiverses,
Yet here you are a conscious being,
All observing, all seeing,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Who I would be? who I should be?

Entangled

Entangled in an endless web of lies, you and me,
Entangled in same motions of cursed lives,  you and me,  

Only memories are left, of that love which was true,
Only memories are left, of me and of you,   

This story of us, deprived of a happy ending,
This story of us, of me and you pretending,  

But the fact of life is everything changes,  people leave,
But the fact of life is harsh and grim, I believe,  

I believed in a fairy tale, a happily ever after,
I believed in happiness and your laughter,  

 
How was I supposed to know the truth from lies,
How was I supposed to react, if not with tears and cries, 

 
But they say everything happens for the best,
But they say hardships are nothing but a test,  

 
This fear of falling in love again,
This fear of rejection and memory of pain,  

But you made me who I am today,
But you made me a soul grim and fey,  

 
I think that I will always love you from afar,
I think that I am a planet and you’re my star,  

You may think that I am stuck in the past,
You may think that my life is ending fast,  

Many questions,  answers hidden,
Many questions,  still forbidden,  

This mind singing,  ever so strong,
This mind singing,  seeking where I belong, 

But the road goes ever on and on,
But the road goes from dusk till dawn,  

 
Everyday a new dawn,  a new adventure,
Everyday a new journey to venture,  

 
The endlessness of infinite trots,
The endlessness of infinite thoughts,  

 
My place is small in these poems, these rhymes, these verses,
My place is small in these quasars, these pulsars, these multiverses.

Gone Girl

The long alone nights in bed,
Still her memories in head,

Keeping alive what is long gone,
Wondering if I would ever go on,

The bumpy road ahead is waiting,
Time to act is now so stop debating,

I don’t know where the fate is taking,
Pretend to know destiny,  keep on faking,

Hating to love her,  loving to hate,
Heart is drowning in this limbo state,

It’s messed up ain’t it when curses turn to praise,
Shivering in winter, praying for bright summer days?

Summer days, sun shining, her beautiful smile,
Her brown hair, her green eyes deeper then Nile,

Her fat nose,  her pale skin,
Her deformed teeth, her stupid chin,

It comes fast and faster it goes,
She was just one of many hoes,

Time to forget her for tonight,
Adios to memories and sleep tight.

Talibans

These animals pretending to be humans on earth,
Destroying our lives,  killing our children who want to learn,
Crying  parents who raised them since birth,
Our students and teachers they want to burn,

 

Shock is a small word for what we feel,
Who will tend to this wound, how will we heal?

 

I know not everything but I know this is not the Muslim way,
You will burn in hell for this,  for this you will pay,

 

The Prophet said children were flowers of Paradise,
But you killed them,  you animals in disguise,

 

My sadness turned to anger and I can’t rhyme,
But you need to be eradicated for this horrendous crime,

 

You are cowards, a shame on the face of humanity,
Who will help, who will end this insanity?

 

I cry and I scream and I scream and I cry,
I will fight you,  I may not win but I will try,

 

I am small,  I have nothing but my pen,
But I will walk bare handed in the wolves den,

 

Then there are some who want to justify this act,
Better come not near me if you want you body parts intact,

 

Whether you are talibans, AL Qaeda or ISIS,
Faces of evil, bringers of demonic vices,

 

How life on earth has become so complicated now,
But let’s end this madness,  let’s make a vow,

 

To stand against these murderers of innocence,
Take my hand and let’s create a fence,

 

People of earth United as one,
It’s not impossible, it can be done,

 

Against these monsters,  these soulless puppets of disgrace,
It won’t be easy,  death never is, but these demons we must face,

 

These children slayers pretending to be humans on earth,
Killing dreams of parents who raised them since birth.

November Rain

I have never loved anyone as much I have loved you,
My intentions were pious, my feelings were true,   

 

As I think back at all the times, the memories pass before my eyes,
The flings end and are forgotten but the love that was true never dies,   

 

There came many after you but your thought was always in my head,
Still sometimes I think about you when I sleep alone in my bed,   

 

I often wonder if you are also thinking of me and  do you cry,
Do you still hold on my things, would you come back, would you try,   

 

I will forgive you and forget and I will hug you tight and I will kiss you deep,
The sun will shine on us, as ours eyes will meet as we begin to weep,   

 

The fate has played a mortal game with us, the destiny brought pain,
We are wandering on our seprate paths, lost in this november rain.