My head is just spinning,
Am I losing or am I winning,
I gave it all I had,
I am so furious and fast,
I don’t want to finish last,
I am breaking bad,
I write what I think,
I live life on the brink,
I am going mad,
All the thoughts in my head,
Celebrating life, mourning the dead,
Life is happy sometimes, sometimes it is sad,
Love always brought me pain,
I am drenched wet in the rain,
Loneliness makes me glad,
Alone on my own, a party in my mind,
Flowing towards the future, not looking behind,
Supporting my family, helping my dad,
My head continues to spin,
I have no choice but to win,
I am satisfied with the life I had.
I have never loved anyone as much I have loved you,
My intentions were pious, my feelings were true,
As I think back at all the times, the memories pass before my eyes,
The flings end and are forgotten but the love that was true never dies,
There came many after you but your thought was always in my head,
Still sometimes I think about you when I sleep alone in my bed,
I often wonder if you are also thinking of me and do you cry,
Do you still hold on my things, would you come back, would you try,
I will forgive you and forget and I will hug you tight and I will kiss you deep,
The sun will shine on us, as ours eyes will meet as we begin to weep,
The fate has played a mortal game with us, the destiny brought pain,
We are wandering on our seprate paths, lost in this november rain.
Why do we put ourselves up for rejection?
Why can we never see the deception?
Why do we choose to become the fools again?
Why be fooled by lost love, why do we suffer the pain?
What pushes us to change the way it ended?
Why collect the pieces which can’t be mended?
Why do we feel the need to change our past?
Why continue something which won’t last?
Why think of the times long gone?
Why live in agony and moan?
Why question your destiny, your fate?
Just let go, let it go, forget, forgive, rise above hate.
Words. Their power is undeniable. The impact that they can have on our lives, our decisions, our relationships, our day to day encounters is unmistakable. They make or break relationships, especially the fragile ones. Relationships are fragile, even the ones we think will never end and are Eternal and will go on forever. Words have the power to destroy and to create. But creating is difficult. You can spend all your life building a relationship and with some words it can end. The whole journey comes to a stop. It ends. You can try to take back your words, rethink them, apologize, but what’s broken is broken, it can never be fully mended, it will always carry the scars, the cracks. No matter how much you try to mend them, the hurt of words is a grave wound. Sometimes you can’t go back no matter how much you wish you could. People often think that the only fragile relationships are the one between a guy and a girl, a couple, boy friend and girl friend. But those are not the only kind of fragile relationships. Sometimes even the immortal friendships you have with your friends of lifetimes can end with the sword of words. And even the eternal relationships like your parents can become complicated by the mortal web of words. And you are stuck in present, this venomous poisonous weaving web, you can’t go back. Relationships become diluted, feelings hurt and egos win. You are never the same again. Becoming estranged with people who have spent your life with is not a feeling you wish even on your enemy. But there is a reason behind everything, the words uttered are not always meaningless. Sometimes they are needed, sometimes you need to speak for yourself, to defend yourself from attacks, attacks on your character, your personality, on you as a human being. When you are accused, judged, made fun of, insulted, mocked, laughed at.
Is it not right to express your anger? So what would one do in such situation? Just accept the consequences and move on, stop caring, accept estrangement, shed a tear alone, live with it? Or you keep trying to mend it, to save it, to apologize, to talk and to resolve?
I don’t know the answer but the choice is yours.
Sitting alone in a rainy day,
Tired of games, too bored to play,
Nothing left to do, no demons to slay,
No one to please, no one to obey,
Panic, disorder, crisis of identity,
Is someone out there, any entity?
In the world of grey, there is no black and white,
Darkness is everywhere, no hope here, no light,
In this scarcity of matter, the emptiness is atomic deep,
What is real or imagination, what to lose, what to keep,
Finding God in this infinite multiverse,
Athiests fool themselves, but why are religions diverse?
In the grand scheme of things, who am I?
Do I matter, or will I just fade and die?
Will someone remember, will they cry?
Thinking of a guy who used to get high,
Endless dreams shattered in endless screams,
But I am still here, dreaming the impossible dreams,
Fighting for a future that may never be,
But the real fun is in the journey you see.
Empty, clueless, sad, desperate and alone,
My feelings, now that you are gone;
My hopes, my life, my million dreams,
My heart torn, in endless screams;
In silence, I survive, I suffer, I live,
Got nothing to lose, nothing to give;
What happened, what brought me here,
Way filled with thorns, my feet are bare;
Empty street, night, darkness, rain,
Will I give up, die, end the pain.
Or will I rise up and fight,
The end is hidden from sight,
Lion heart will mend itself right,
All I have to do is survive the night,
My savior will come all dressed in white,
Then the sun’ll rise and days will be bright,
Darkness will end, happiness, Heavenly light,
End of emptiness, desperation, sadness, fright,
Does she think of you, did she care?
Was it just, is it fair?
Memories of past haunt me in my sleep,
Sometimes I lay in bed awake and weep,
Why cant we flip the switch and forget,
The pain, the hurt and the regret,
I smile and I drink and I dance and I hide,
The wounds, the scars, the broken side,
I am too proud to return, to ever go back,
Have to look ahead, put life on a different track,
I am happy, I have moved on,
I believed in love but I was proved wrong,
Life without love is a happy life,
No headache or drama, freedom, no wife,
Come party with me and enjoy this delight,
The sun is shinning and the day bright,
No reason to be sad,
You are alive, dont be mad,
Just smoke some pipe and be glad,
Survival of the fittest is evolution,
The time has come for a revolution,
Rise, rise, rise and take it all,
The time has come for the empire to fall,
Freedom and love for everyone,
Discriminate against no one,
Rise, rise, rise against the powers,
Crush down and destroy all these towers,
The avalanche of love will sweep the world,
Join hands with me and lets save the world.
“You are stuck with me for life”, he used to say..
But fact is nobody is stuck with anybody for life..
Life is like a river, flowing..it changes..air changes, climate changes, weather changes..everything changes..you change..the cells on your body change, old cells die and new cells are born to take their place, even your skin changes..you are not the same person you were yesterday..time changed you..time passes..endless flow which started from the beginning, if there was a beginning, and will continue till the end, if there is one..
Earth keeps revolving around the sun which keeps revolving around a blackhole which keep moving through time and space.. it doesnt stop turning, not for you, not for me, nor for any sage, any rich or poor, any prophet..everything is in motion..from cluster of galaxies amd their trillions of stars to the electrons inside an atom..if you stop, then the world leaves you behind..the universe leaves you behind..
Its wrong to expect things to be remain the same and same is true for people..people evolve, like everything else evolves..what we can do is just accept the changes and learn to live with them and evolve
Here at the top of world I see
I see buildings tall and cities
Cities and trees and birds whisper
Whispering songs of joy
Joy and love, these beautiful words
Words of peace and heart
Heart which is lonely alone
Alone in this time
Time is evolution
Evolution of heart and mind
Mind that is racing
Racing to face the challenges
Challenges which are in front
Front which I will confront
Confront and fight
Fight and survive
Survive and live
Live and breath
Breath the air
Air of fresh breeze and smoke
Smoke smoke i will not choke
Choke the bad memories
Memories that haunt
Haunt me inside out
Out of heart out of sight
Sight I love
Love is big word
Word or an illusion
Illusion which kills
Kills the desires
Desires which we have
We have and then we lose
Lose the faith
Faith which is essential
Essential to life
Life which I see
Here at the top of world I see