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The Journey Of Life

Sitting alone in a rainy day,

Tired of games, too bored to play,

Nothing left to do, no demons to slay,

No one to please, no one to obey,

 

Panic, disorder, crisis of identity,

Is someone out there, any entity?

 

In the world of grey, there is no black and white,

Darkness is everywhere, no hope here, no light,

 

In this scarcity of matter, the emptiness is atomic deep,

What is real or imagination, what to lose, what to keep,

 

Finding God in this infinite multiverse,

Athiests fool themselves, but why are religions diverse?

 

In the grand scheme of things, who am I?

Do I matter, or will I just fade and die?

Will someone remember, will they cry?

Thinking of a guy who used to get high,

 

Endless dreams shattered in endless screams,

But I am still here, dreaming the impossible dreams,

 

Fighting for a future that may never be,

But the real fun is in the journey you see.

He Lived

It was a cold starry night and he just got back to Amsterdam in train. Today he went to meet his friend in another city. He had met him through internet before but today was the first time they ever met. John took him to his home and they had second breakfast together. Then they went for cycling around the beautiful green woods and played Tolkien trivia. It was a beautiful sunny day but the clouds had started gathering.

He got off the train at central station and went to the tram stop. It was cold but he felt so much full of energy and full of confidence. He looked to his left and saw a beautiful girl also waiting for her bus. Gathering up his courage, he approached her and asked her ,”How are you doing?” The girl smiled and said,”I am fine thank you, How are you?” “Fine too”, he replied. “I came from Italy for a week”, he told her.

“Oh that’s really great. Are you enjoying it so far?”

“Yes it has been really great. There is some big party tonight that I was invited to. Do you want to come?”

“Oh I don’t really go to parties that much but thanks”, she backed away a bit.

You idiot, what was the hurry. You blew your chance. “Oh no problem. So what do..”, he started but was cut off because she had started talking to couple of guys who were standing to her right.

Feeling mixed emotions he put a smile to his face and nodded a good bye to her as she took her bus with the other two guys.  What a bitch..Nah! What an idiot who doesn’t know how to ask out a girl.

He took his tram back to his hotel. Alex and Cameron were waiting for him when he reached his room.

“Let me just change my clothes and then I am ready to go”, he told them before they could complain about him being late.

John’s mother made a traditional Holland dish for him. Mashed potatoes with sausages and vegetables. He really liked it and complimented her on her cooking. John’s room was a mess, a mess full of books. They both were huge Tolkien nerds. He convinced John to install LOTRO and he did, they made a character for him, a temporary character obviously, till John could come up with a unique elvish name. After playing some LOTRO, they took his dog out for a walk, they walked on old mounds and also tried to find the bunnies, but they never found any.

Which shirt to wear. Ah this one. Holding up his black Stone Cold t-shirt. He quickly changed into it. They decided to walk to the club. It was crowded when they arrived there. The music was loud. They got the drinks. He had never been to a club before, nor had he ever danced before. But his metamorphosis had started.He liked the sound of music, the beat, the shaking of butt, the dancing. He knew no moves but he was athletic enough to copy others. He saw a group of girls dancing and he started copying them, Soon enough they noticed him and asked him to join them.

ooo Yeah! He did.

He told them about himself and his week vacation. They were all very friendly and inviting. One girl especially got his attention. She had a certain mean girl look to her, which he loved so much in girls, and she was a blond.

“So are you single”, the words escaped his mouth before he could stop them. What the fuck is wrong with you!!

But to his surprise she did not mind the question, probably because she was drunk or maybe its a blond thing. Whatever it was, they started talking and dancing together. Music does bring people together. After sometime it became difficult for him to breath. Lets say it was because of the heat and loud music.

“I will be right back, need to smoke”, he lied. He fought his way across the jam packed dance floor and into the smoking/pool room. He got his breath back.

There is just something about Indians and Pakistanis, that no matter how you are dressed or what your hair style is, you just instantly recognize each other. So when this two Indian guys entered the room with beers in their hands, he spotted them at once and they spotted him at once. The language they spoke is called Punjabi, which I will not write here. In the common tongue this is what they said..

“Hey dude! Pakistani or Indian?”, the more stylish looking guy asked.

“Pakistani here and you guys must be from India..I came here for a week from Italy”

“Yes brother we are Indians. Welcome. Enjoying the party buddy?”

“Yeah bro its really great. Do you guys smoke?”

“Yeah, you have some?”

“Yeah, I bought it yesterday”. He took out his smoking pipe and filled it and lit it. You were allowed to smoke anything in the pool area. I took a long shot and passed it to his new friends. They took the hits. The magic pipe at once started its magic and in just 5 minutes they were all playing pool together and laughing and dancing. Talking about life and its mysteries and how their pool table was like the solar system and the balls were like planets and what would happen if we got hit by an asteroid right now. It was a merry moment.

Oh damn!! the girl!? “I should go now, it was really nice meeting you guys, peace brothers!” He rushed back into the dance room before they said their good byes. He fought his way across the dance floor back to where he was before, but the beautiful blond fairy princess was gone, and two dudes were sitting where she was. He gave himself a hard-ish slap on his head and sat down. Soon Alex and Cameron also joined him.

“Where were you, we were looking for you everywhere”, Alex said.

“Yeah just dancing and meeting people”, he said, forcing a smile on his face.

They stayed there some more and danced together before leaving for their hotel.

They finally found two empty seats. John sat in front of him. They played “speaking elvish” on his way back to Amsterdam. John had to get off because it was late and he had to return to his home taking the last train. An old guy replaced him on his seat. On his right, 3 girls were sitting. They started talking in loud voices and somehow they started talking to him.

“You look really cute, you wanna go grab a drink when we reach Amsterdam?”, one of them said.

He had a puzzled look on his face and didn’t know what to make of this invitation. But before he could say anything, the older guy sitting in front of him spoke,

“Leave this poor guy alone you three, if you want drink, go have them yourself, you hooligans”

“Thank you for that”, he told the man.”I am Ali, I came here from Italy for a week”, he gave him his hand.

“I am Thijs Berg, I direct movies”, he said, shaking his hand. They talked about what movies he made. He told him that he often comes to Italy, while the hooligans were still talking in loud voices but they ignored them. They got off at Amsterdam Centraal.”Well it was nice talking to you Mr. Thijs Berg. Good Bye”, he waved. “Likewise. Good Bye”, he walked to his taxi and he walked to his tram stop.

They reached their hotel, all exhausted and tired. He waved them bye to their room before going to his own. It was a good day today. For the first time in his life he lived. He changed into pajamas and went to bed dreaming about the beautiful blond fairy princess angel.

Thoughts in My Head

Does she think of you, did she care?

Was it just, is it fair?

Memories of past haunt me in my sleep,

Sometimes I lay in bed awake and weep, 

Why cant we flip the switch and forget,

The pain, the hurt and the regret,

I smile and I drink and I dance and I hide, 

The wounds, the scars, the broken side,

I am too proud to return, to ever go back,

Have to look ahead, put life on a different track,

.different track

.different track

.different track

I am happy, I have moved on,

I believed in love but I was proved wrong,

Life without love is a happy life,

No headache or drama, freedom, no wife, 

Come party with me and enjoy this delight,

The sun is shinning and the day bright, 

No reason to be sad,

You are alive, dont be mad, 

Just smoke some pipe and be glad,

.be glad

.be glad

.be glad

Survival of the fittest is evolution,

The time has come for a revolution,

Rise, rise, rise and take it all, 

The time has come for the empire to fall,

Freedom and love for everyone,

Discriminate against no one,

Rise, rise, rise against the powers, 

Crush down and destroy all these towers,

The avalanche of love will sweep the world,

Join hands with me and lets save the world.

Evolve

“You are stuck with me for life”, he used to say..
But fact is nobody is stuck with anybody for life..
Life is like a river, flowing..it changes..air changes, climate changes, weather changes..everything changes..you change..the cells on your body change, old cells die and new cells are born to take their place, even your skin changes..you are not the same person you were yesterday..time changed you..time passes..endless flow which started from the beginning, if there was a beginning, and will continue till the end, if there is one..
Earth keeps revolving around the sun which keeps revolving around a blackhole which keep moving through time and space.. it doesnt stop turning, not for you, not for me, nor for any sage, any rich or poor, any prophet..everything is in motion..from cluster of galaxies amd their trillions of stars to the electrons inside an atom..if you stop, then the world leaves you behind..the universe leaves you behind..
Its wrong to expect things to be remain the same and same is true for people..people evolve, like everything else evolves..what we can do is just accept the changes and learn to live with them and evolve

Here at the top of world

Here at the top of world I see
I see buildings tall and cities
Cities and trees and birds whisper
Whispering songs of joy
Joy and love, these beautiful words
Words of peace and heart
Heart which is lonely alone
Alone in this time
Time is evolution
Evolution of heart and mind
Mind that is racing
Racing to face the challenges
Challenges which are in front
Front which I will confront
Confront and fight
Fight and survive
Survive and live
Live and breath
Breath the air
Air of fresh breeze and smoke
Smoke smoke i will not choke
Choke the bad memories
Memories that haunt
Haunt me inside out
Out of heart out of sight
Sight I love
Love is big word
Word or an illusion
Illusion which kills
Kills the desires
Desires which we have
We have and then we lose
Lose the faith
Faith which is essential
Essential to life
Life which I see
Here at the top of world I see

They are here

He woke up from a dream..good or bad he didnt know..it was a strange dream for it had roots in reality yet it was so alien to him..
He looked at wall clock while still laying in bed and saw it were 30 past 8..he turned to the other side to see the sun shinning bright..
He got up and sat on his bed..the memory of his dream still in his head..what did it mean, he wondered to himself..was it just a dream or a vision from future..he shook his head and got up from the bed..
He had plans today..he needed to go to university and study and get a hair cut and get water from his uncle’s house and exercise..
Exercise, he had been feeling his body aching at weird places and his back..he needed to get back in shape..sitting in front of computer and playing games and studying in his chair had taken a toll on his body..
He made himself breakfast..
Tomorrow was Eid, a happy festive day..he couldn’t wait to wear his new dress that his dad bought him..he was glad..he packed his back pack and left for the bus..
The sun was shinning hot..hotter then any other day..he went to the bus stop and sat and waited..he looked up at the sun through his sun glasses..it was bright and brilliant..the sky was bluish white with some cloud here and there..
He heard a weird sound that startled him..it was a strange hump sound..loud and deep..he got up looking around for the source but found none..he sat back again..
He pulled out his pipe from his pocket and filled it with tobacco..he began to smoke..and it was good..and relaxing..
The sound came again and he again looked around trying to find the source..he glanced again at the sun and then he saw it..
A small black dot..black or some other dark color..he kept staring at it as the object began to grow..becoming larger and larger by the second..perhaps some new italian space craft or international space station passing by Earth or or..he ran out of rational explanations in his mind as the strange sound once again originated from it..
He got up at once..he had seen it before..it was familiar to him but it shouldn’t have been..the object was the size of a whole football field hovering in sky..covering the sun slowly..the darkness spreading around him..
People started coming out of their homes looking up..fear in their eyes..screams and yells and curses..
Then a voice spoke in a language he knew not..He got scared and excited..

They were here!