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Maybe I Do, Maybe I Don’t

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

Here is the history of life, the mystery of delight,
Born and raised in a middle class family, born to fight,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

The social ladder is hard to climb up, it is no doubt a struggle,
In a world of opportunities for some, contest of wizard and muggle,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

From the humble beginnings, to highest of the high,
The customs, cultures, family values and norms you defy,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

It is a duel between living and existing or surviving,
The purpose is to achieve the living, before I’m dying,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

My heart is ever yearning,
This world is ever turning,
The desire inside ever burning,
Absent mind, heart is governing,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

The thoughts are wack,
Watching over my back,
Grey in world of white and black,
Decision between striving and slack,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

So what is this fictional story,
What is this imaginative glory,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

Ramblings of an addict, in a battle to lose his cause,
Rambling ever on and on, absent praise or applause,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t,

Nowhere left to hide,
No rules to abide,
Absent belief, faith on the side,
Leaving it on God to guide,
To my salvation and decide,
To my fate and bride,
To my companion on this ride,
Coming back to humility from pride,
Saving me from the pit, large and wide,
To soar in the air, fly off and glide,

Maybe I do want to, but maybe I don’t,
I won’t say I do, I won’t say I won’t.

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A Moment of Silence

A moment of silence, a moment to reflect,
All the time wasted, all the duties you neglect,

The routine, ever going on and on,
There is no coming back to the time gone,

So wake up and realize and do something about it,
Work, hustle, work and never ever doubt it,

Hard work pays off, it’s a fact, not a fiction,
So kick out of your deviant ways and addiction,

It’s time to rise up and fix the mistakes made,
Time is running by, dear, live life before you just fade,

A pursuit of happiness, a happily ever after,
Live life with love, joy, family, friends and laughter,

A new beginning, a new start,
Pack your bags and depart,

Stay true to your core values, your heart,
Just close your eyes and breath in and throw that dart,

Peace is inside you, God is inside you,
Be bold and confident, be sincere and true,

Greatness is in your grasp, just reach out,
Show the world what you’re made of, what you’re about,

A moment of silence, a moment to reflect,
All the time spent, and the people you affect.

Stairway to Heaven

I fell from the stairway to heaven,

Guilty concious, my sins were seven,


Inspired no more, desired even less,

Hired no more, afraid to confess,


The mask of fakeness, fake laughs, fake smiles,

Journeying through time and space, infinite miles,


The will to rise up, the will of iron broken,

Remembering her eyes, regretting the words spoken,


Remembering her eyes, eyes deeper than Nile,

Her beauty and innocence, her sweet smile,


Her fake smile, her broken promises, her lies,

Her manipulation, her empty words, her fake cries,


She cut my wings, I couldn’t fly,

I sat down to wake up, to get high,


I picked up the pen and started writing,

Put my thoughts in rhymes and started fighting,


Took back control of my life,

Broke free, ended my strife,


Found my way back to the stairway to heaven,

To get to my paradise, my safe Haven.

Let’s Pretend

Let’s pretend that the fairy tail never ends,
Let’s pretend that the heart mends,
Let’s pretend that the dream is still alive,
Let’s pretend that I am still that naive,
Let’s pretend she is still in my heart,
Let’s pretend we never fell apart,
Let’s pretend that I still believe in love,
Let’s pretend that there is still a God above,
Let’s pretend I still believe her lies,
Let’s pretend the soul never dies,
Let’s pretend I never picked up the drink,
Let’s pretend I never rolled back from the brink,
Let pretend there is a happily ever after,
Let’s pretend there is still joy and laughter,
Let’s pretend, I never picked up that pen,
Let’s pretend I am still hiding in my den,
Let’s pretend life has a meaning,
Let’s pretend it’s not demeaning,
Let’s pretend I never made a mistake,
Lets pretend, let’s just pretend for Gods sake.

The Work Never Stops 

The work never stops, 

Trying to help his paps, 

All the changes he adopts, 

The attitude drops, 

Influences of external forces, 

Immersing in all the discourses, 

Debating the meaning of life, 

Going through the struggle and strife, 

Hating the state of world, this place, 

Praying to God, for His mercy and grace, 

Riding and roving, on this journey, 

Armored to fight in this tourney, 

Bringing a pen to this sword fight, 

Fighting darkness, with words of light, 

Rise and rebel and deny and defy, 

Spread your wings, fight, not fly, 

A fool, a dreamer, an idea, a thought, 

Just words on a paper, sought and bought, 

An enigma, eminence, freedom, escape, 

Love and life, smoke and vape, 

The work never stops, 

Still just trying to help his paps. 

Awoken

I am going through changes,
My emotions all over the place,
Awoken, something deep inside of me,
Awoken, from the deep sleep,
Awoken, now I am free,
Awoken, in spite of thee,
Awoken, desire to be greater,
Awoken, fire of passion,
Awoken, pyre of devotion,
Emotion, sprung erosion,
Reality, or distortion,
Truth, stranger than fiction,
Fight, obsessive addiction,
Light, at the end of tunnel,
Light, this sight,
Light, so bright,
Light, in the night,
Light, so blinding,
Right, I never am,
Right, at the front of cam,
Right, just a scam,
Beauty, in her eyes,
Beauty, yet her lies,
Beauty, those good byes,
Beauty, all the tries,
Compassion, this humanity,
Compassion, vain and vanity,
Compassion, salty, salinity,
Passion, desire to be,
Passion, desire to see,
Passion, desire of thee,
Passion, desire to flee,
Passion, higher than me,
Peace, my purpose in life,
Peace, without children or wife,
Peace, drop the knife,
Peace, stop the fight,
Peace, no more war,
Peace, in what you are,
Peace, it’s never too far,
Peace, heaven on earth,
Peace, desire since birth,
Peace, just peace,
Just peace!

A Seeker

If you’re reading this it means I might be dead, 

Was I out or laying in my bed, 

Life flashing in front of my eyes, 

All the things unsaid, 

Did I die of natural causes, 

Or killed by a fed, 

Soul is leaving my body, 

A glooming dread, 

Taking my time, 

To think about my crime, 

The past caught up to me, 

So I am looking ahead, 

All the mysteries revealed, 

I surrender and yield, 

Should I be feeling regret instead, 

But there is no remorse in me, 

Broken shackles, now I am free, 

To be, to see, to flee, 

To blink, to think, of thee, 

Marvel at her sight, 

So ravishing, her majesty, 

These songs I sing, 

Often of love, 

Sometimes of theory of string, 

This universe in the multiverse, 

Mind singing, captured in verse, 

The dimensions are thirteen, 

The ever learning observer so keen, 

The possibilities are infinite, 

Expanding every second in every minute, 

Surrounded by darkness of space, 

Don’t be shy, do not hide your face, 

But there is also light, 

Nebulas and Quasars and Polaris in sight, 

Spinning at a magical pace,

The mega clusters of galaxies in a race, 

Sucked into black holes, and spit out of white holes, 

Meeting some aliens and asked them their life goals,

No languages needed,

Threats from extra terrestrial unheeded,

Communicating through our minds,

When one seeks something, he always finds,

So I am an observer, a seeker,

A wanderer, a secret keeper,

A dying man, on pale blue dot,

Or a memory, in someone’s thought. 

Casual Raiders, A Home for All

Hail friend! Casual Raiders is in the house,
Ready your keyboard, recharge your mouse,

We like to raid and we like to have fun,
We help kinnies, we take along everyone one,

We’re the best on Brandywine, when it comes to raids,
Our strength is our team, our glory never fades,

Doesn’t matter if you’re a casual or hardcore,
We’re amazing and larger than ever before,

We have good people, a kin one of a kind,
Built on respect and trust, leaving no one behind,

Two years ago, there was only just me,
Now we have 41 pages of men and women free,

Casual Raiders, a place to be,
Casual Raiders, from Gondor to Bree,

One kin to rule them all,
One kin of unite us,
One kin to bring us all,
And in the light, remind us,

A game is to have fun with friends and family,
We have Ali, CJ, Wook, Tankyn and Emily,

We have pravion, Noranti , Rash and Nick,
And countless others in our clique,

Casual Raiders, a destiny, a home for all,
Casual Raiders, here to stay, and never fall.

I see you now

I see now, I see you, I see now,
When you’re gone, I dream now,

When I was happy and the world was bright,
When you were in my arms, hearts delight,

Oh my lord what happened, you left,
My heart was stolen, it was a theft,

Who can save me now, I wonder,
Will I go on and repeat this blunder,

It is hard to smile now, it is so hard,
Give me some stregth, be my guard,

Oh lord of mine, where are you,
I look up in pain, at that sky blue,

When I am sad, alone and I cry,
A part of me just wants to die,

But when I think of you, and the world about,
I forget my meaningless life, and my doubt,

You are great, greatest of all,
You will save me , when I fall,

Oh my lord, oh my lord, oh my lord,
I will spread your word, absent sword,

I sing songs of happiness, songs of joy,
When you wipe my tears, wipe them dry,

I’ve seen you now, I’ve seen, I’ve seen you now,
When you were gone, I still continue to dream now.

Cycle of death and birth

Oh you of weak mind,
Forever in pursuit,
Unable to find,

Running after lust,
Nothing to hold on,
Lost in a pile of dust,

No reason or rhyme,
Mindless living existence,
Guilty, absent crime,

Nightmare or a tragic tale,
No Princess or evil Queen,
Drinking tears from holy grail,

Think and think I must,
This mindful mind singing,
Mysterious children of stardust,

They explore, invent and make,
Innovate and improve upon,
Some are giving, while others take,

Their humanity and compassion,
Their small acts of kindness,
Falling in love and passion,

This beautiful life and earth,
Our small pale blue dot,
This cycle of death and birth,

Oh you curious of mind,
Never stop the pursuit,
What you seek, may you find.