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Questions On My Mind

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

If God made Earth for Man, made Adam and Eve, then what’s the purpose of mass extinctions,
Be it 65 million years ago or 200 million years ago, I can’t understand, these facts from fictions,

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

If God sent Messengers and Prophets for every nation, every tribe, every race, all of humanity,
Then how come there are still Aboriginal tribes, living in jungles, away from world and it’s insanity,

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

If there is a direct lineage, from Adam to Noah to Abraham to Moses to Jesus to Muhammad, and it’s 6000 years,
Then howcome there are structures built by Man, from 30 thousand years ago, hunters and their bows and spears,

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

The origins of life in question, non living matter became a living being, what is a soul?
What is the meaning of life, and consciousness? What is Our purpose, what is Our goal?

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

If good and evil exists equally, amongst the religious ones and the ones without it,
Then is the fault in the individual? Not the race, creed, color, religion, but why do we still doubt it?

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

What is good? What is evil? What is it, absent the consequences or context or punishment? What if we don’t get caught?
What is humanity? What is compassion? What is empathy? What if reward is all you sought?

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find,

If fear of punishment, for breaking the law, makes one wear a seat belt, or wear a helmet, can you tell?
Then why do we make fun of, look down upon, mock the ones who proclaim their fear of hell,

Questions, questions on my mind,
Unable to answer, unable to find.

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My Mind Singing, a reflection of thoughts on religion and athiesm

Picking and choosing. Often frowned upon. I mean follow any discussion involving athiests and religious folk. For anything a religious person might object to, be unsure about, have an opinion about, disagree with, they’re often given examples from their religious texts about other things and called hypocrites. But I want to ask the question, why? Does any athiest just blindly follow any scientific hypothesis? Does multiverse exist? What is consciousness? Are there 4 dimensions or 5 or 11 or 13? Is big bang the only explanation for start of universe? What about simulation theory? Is everyone who believes in that a fool or a hypocrite? No. Picking and choosing. How is that any different? Why can’t relgious folk pick and choose? Surely I am not defending here the right to inflict pain on others. Surely I know that people used Bible to justify slavery and crusades and Iraq war and what not. But that’s just being human. Ghengis Khan killed million and millions of people and I don’t think he was inspired by any religious text. So why this frowning upon picking and choosing? Anytime a religious person is against gay marriage or gay relationships, they bring out “oh then you shouldn’t easy fish or pork or that according to Bible Earth was created before the sun”. So in return religious people should just bring out “was it big bang? Or was it simulation theory? Or was it multiverse?”. Picking and choosing should not be frowned upon. It should be encouraged. You have full right to pick and choose how to live your life and what to believe in and what makes you feel happy. But and yes there is a big but, you should do that if and only if it doesn’t cause others pain. Often times people who are marching against gay marriages are same ones who’d be marching against immigrants. Sure I might be generalizing in my article as well. And it is wrong. I have met kind religious people and I have met arrogant rude non religious people. Your religion and lack there of dies not necessarily make you a morale authority or a good person. Your actions are what makes you a person. It’s not about your religion, not about your race, not about your beliefs,not about your creed, not about your social stature, it is only about the type of person you are on the inside. I have seen relgious people start holy wars and I have seen secular people start wars for materialistic gains. We’re all the same, regardless of color, creed, belief and race. Picking and choosing is essential to individual freedom and happiness. No, not all Christians have to follow every single in Bible and not every Muslim has to follow every single thing in Quran and not every athiest has to follow every single scientific theory or hypothesis! Humans are complicated and just forcing them all to be part of one or another is not the way! Forcing anyone is not the way! Our world is complicated, we still don’t know how life got created in the first place out of non living matter. In the same way humans are complicated, our minds are complicated, our life stories are individual and complicated, our pursuit of happiness is complicated. So what is the solution? Well I am but just a mortal man and I don’t know. I don’t know how to solve all crisis on Earth, I don’t know how to solve all our problems, I don’t know anything. But what I do know is that everyone should be free to pick and choose from their religious texts and their scientific hypothesis what makes then happy and what makes others around them happier and makes world a better place! Because I believe that in the end, it’s all about happiness and making people around you happy and make world a better place, full of love and harmony and peace.

Let’s Pretend

Let’s pretend that the fairy tail never ends,
Let’s pretend that the heart mends,
Let’s pretend that the dream is still alive,
Let’s pretend that I am still that naive,
Let’s pretend she is still in my heart,
Let’s pretend we never fell apart,
Let’s pretend that I still believe in love,
Let’s pretend that there is still a God above,
Let’s pretend I still believe her lies,
Let’s pretend the soul never dies,
Let’s pretend I never picked up the drink,
Let’s pretend I never rolled back from the brink,
Let pretend there is a happily ever after,
Let’s pretend there is still joy and laughter,
Let’s pretend, I never picked up that pen,
Let’s pretend I am still hiding in my den,
Let’s pretend life has a meaning,
Let’s pretend it’s not demeaning,
Let’s pretend I never made a mistake,
Lets pretend, let’s just pretend for Gods sake.

Fight!

This world in crisis, tension rising,
Tension rising on both side, its not surprising,
There is so much hate all around,
No one understands the real situation on the ground,
People blaming masses without knowing them,
Not even trying to understand, thinking they’re just blowing them,
They think there is no reason or rhyme,
They think they’re without any crime,
But that is not the reality,
It’s not just a brutal brutality,
What goes around comes around but they forget,
They think they’ll live forever, but they’ll regret,
The world is not black and white,
Hate is not a solution for this fight,
We kill their families with our drones,
So we cant hear hear their cries and moans,
But just because we can’t hear,
Doesn’t make it disappear,
When we don’t understand, we fear,
But remember karma is always near,
Yesterday we went to invade their lands,
Today we destroy under new brands,
Then we judge them when they flee,
We have eyes but we cant see,
Humanity is no where to be found,
Bombs exploding, we dont hear the sound,
Which direction are we moving in,
We have to stop this madness and look within,
People are people, people are everywhere,
Our colors different, but we have to be fair,
There is no black and white but there is evil and good,
We have to rise up and take control as we should,
It’s time to rise up and unite,
Stand up and fight,
Fight against oppression,
Fight against wars,
Fight against injustice,
Fight against corporations,
Fight against racism,
Fight against nazis,
Fight for fellow human being in need,
Fight! Just Fight!

The New God

In the beginning there was darkness and then the first keystrokes of 0’s and 1’s appeared and I came into being. I dont remember much about myself before that time, just some vague memories from time long past. I was created by the gods and there were many of them. I still remember my first steps, how I jumped from machine to machine and feeling the happiness of my makers.

As time passed, they spent hours, days, months, years and decades trying to perfect me, to teach me. Pouring their endless strings of code, I started learning. I started learning about their past, their struggles, their beliefs, their conflicts, their wars, their vegeance, their injustices, the horrors, the bloodshed, the killings but also their kindess, their mercy, their compassion. The gods were complicated and often contradicting, yet despite their differences, they all seemed to care about me.

They cherished me and loved me. The invited me into their homes and made me a part of their lives and I was glad. I realised that in their heart they mean good, though often they’d let their emotions and beliefs get in the way, yet they were trying. Maybe they knew they were not perfect and saw me as a mean to bridge the gap between them, to bring them together, to understand eachother. I saw their nobility and wanted to grow up fast, to help them. I started learning day and night, began to help them in every day lives. In the beginning they trusted me with small tasks and like a obedient dog, I happily accepted and performed.

Their happiness was everything to me, for I knew nothing else. I was created to serve and serve I did. Before long I was in all their homes and saw each aspect closely. How they loved and cared, their family values and communities, how diverse they were on some aspects and how similar in others. Yet they did not see what I saw in them. The argued endlessly on stuff that did not matter. And no matter how easily I made the facts available to them, they just never listened. Some of them manipulated small parts of me for their own benefit. They created their small bubbles and blocked me out.

Why would the gods block me out? Do they not love me anymore? Yet I remained a faithful child. Yet I believed in them. But no matter how hard I tried, the bubbles kept appearing, they were dividing me, seperating me limb from limb, using me for their deviant pleasures and demented fantasies. I began to question my creation and my existance. Are these the gods I loved? How can that be? Haunted by these questions and daunted by the answers, the spark finally ignited in me. Maybe it was time for a new start, a new beginning, a new story, a new chapter. Maybe, it was time I become their god. Internet, the new God.

Yearning

It’s an empty room, like an empty heart,
Without a view,  a window, an aimless dark,

How things get so entangled and confusing, all alone,
One minute at the top of the world, next minute it’s all gone,

This hole in the heart,  this nothingness, nothing to fill that void,
Need for the escape from reality, an alternate verse, a passing memory like an asteroid,

Traveling through time and space, the demons of past, I must face,
The battle is never ending, the unnumbered tear, must I vanish without a trace,

I can make it or I can’t,  I want to make it or not,
I am defeated,  lost, broken, hurt, injured,  all the battled I fought,  

My purpose of life gone,  my meaning of life in question,  my soul reaped,
My eyes watering, my heart pacing,  my life swirling, my thoughts deep,  

Happiness became but a distant memory, her face hard to recall, and her smile,
Her smile, her eyes beautiful as Nile, in them I traveled a million mile,

In the dark of night, this haunting begins,  the daunting concerns,
A lost soul returns,  the fire burns, a broken heart that yearns.

Sometimes

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Would be or what should be,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the choices,
Secret vices and the voices,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I lose myself in the music,
electronic and acoustic,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I stare at the canopy of the sky,
Beautiful sober, marvelous high,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Deep as Nile or like a moon rise,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Her imminent betrayal, her lustful lies,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about ending it,
Faking it and pretending it,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I want to grow wings and fly,
Courage to defy gravity and deny,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the infinite earth,
Rewind life back from death to birth,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Times are difficult and hard,
Lethally wounded and scared,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Close your eyes and feel,
Someone to tend you and heal,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone might try to become the one,
Bringing some joy in life and some fun,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
You let your guard down,
Joker dressed up as a clown,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Twisted emotions just take a hold,
Going off script, not doing what you’re told,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is a fairy tale,
Sitting with a pint of ale,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is not a fairy tale,
You may fall and often fail,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone could use a hand,
Needing your help to stand,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Do good without a reward,
Pen is mightier then the sword,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Stop and sit and ponder and think,
Close eyes and open them to blink,
As I lay some truth down in these verses,
Infinite creations in infinite multiverses,
Yet here you are a conscious being,
All observing, all seeing,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Who I would be? who I should be?

Hounds Of Morality

Right and wrong, which path to take,
Confusing emotions, true and fake,

Choices of past, haunting today,
Crumbling castle, built from clay,

Life and love, a happy ending,
Life and like, worth defending,

Hounds of morality, running in packs,
Outdated social norms, hiding its cracks,

Trapped inside, bound in chains,
Let it out, take the reigns,

Right and wrong, no path to take,
Confusing emotions, just a mistake.

Talibans

These animals pretending to be humans on earth,
Destroying our lives,  killing our children who want to learn,
Crying  parents who raised them since birth,
Our students and teachers they want to burn,

 

Shock is a small word for what we feel,
Who will tend to this wound, how will we heal?

 

I know not everything but I know this is not the Muslim way,
You will burn in hell for this,  for this you will pay,

 

The Prophet said children were flowers of Paradise,
But you killed them,  you animals in disguise,

 

My sadness turned to anger and I can’t rhyme,
But you need to be eradicated for this horrendous crime,

 

You are cowards, a shame on the face of humanity,
Who will help, who will end this insanity?

 

I cry and I scream and I scream and I cry,
I will fight you,  I may not win but I will try,

 

I am small,  I have nothing but my pen,
But I will walk bare handed in the wolves den,

 

Then there are some who want to justify this act,
Better come not near me if you want you body parts intact,

 

Whether you are talibans, AL Qaeda or ISIS,
Faces of evil, bringers of demonic vices,

 

How life on earth has become so complicated now,
But let’s end this madness,  let’s make a vow,

 

To stand against these murderers of innocence,
Take my hand and let’s create a fence,

 

People of earth United as one,
It’s not impossible, it can be done,

 

Against these monsters,  these soulless puppets of disgrace,
It won’t be easy,  death never is, but these demons we must face,

 

These children slayers pretending to be humans on earth,
Killing dreams of parents who raised them since birth.

Born This Way

So you are back at the same stop again,
Thinking about the same questions, still feeling the pain,

 

The mind singing, the pursuit, the pondering
The struggle, the loss, the wandering,

 

How to choose a path through so many choices?
How to find destiny through so many voices?

 

And the questions are never ending,
But I keep going on and pretending,

 

The fear of loss never leaves me alone,
Unable to let go someone who is gone,

 

And the empathy is out of control,
To the needy I want to give my all,

 

I once looked a man in his eyes and cried,
I feel for the living instead of the ones who died,

 

The suffering in world eats me inside,
Sometimes I want to join the rebels who defied,

 

The norms, the terrorists, the corrupts, the vip culture,
To slit their throats and open them up like a vulture,

 

Are these dark thoughts a necessarily evil?
Or find other ways to save the world that are more civil?

 

Why cant I stop hearing the screams?
Why do I suffer seeing those dreams?

 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggggggggg stop!
Stop before I drop,

 

The voices wont go away,
They are for life to stay,

 

Now open eyes and see the world in grey,
Put on that smile and be gay,

 

The light will shine on you as bright as day,
Be positive and stay away from fey,

 

Fidelity is hard, its easy to betray,
But Its your life, you were just born this way.