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Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Would be or what should be,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the choices,
Secret vices and the voices,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I lose myself in the music,
electronic and acoustic,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I stare at the canopy of the sky,
Beautiful sober, marvelous high,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Deep as Nile or like a moon rise,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about her green eyes,
Her imminent betrayal, her lustful lies,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about ending it,
Faking it and pretending it,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I want to grow wings and fly,
Courage to defy gravity and deny,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about the infinite earth,
Rewind life back from death to birth,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Times are difficult and hard,
Lethally wounded and scared,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Close your eyes and feel,
Someone to tend you and heal,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone might try to become the one,
Bringing some joy in life and some fun,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
You let your guard down,
Joker dressed up as a clown,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Twisted emotions just take a hold,
Going off script, not doing what you’re told,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is a fairy tale,
Sitting with a pint of ale,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Life is not a fairy tale,
You may fall and often fail,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Someone could use a hand,
Needing your help to stand,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Do good without a reward,
Pen is mightier then the sword,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
Stop and sit and ponder and think,
Close eyes and open them to blink,
As I lay some truth down in these verses,
Infinite creations in infinite multiverses,
Yet here you are a conscious being,
All observing, all seeing,

 

Sometimes, sometimes,
I think about what could be,
Who I would be? who I should be?

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The Last Goodbye

Your eyes, deep, sexy and green,
You were in the last year of teen,

 

Your voice was music to my ear,
You were far, yet always so near,

 

So started this journey of you and me,
A gamble with fates and our destiny,

 

Many differences were overcome, compromises made,
It seemed like our love would just never fade,

 

The long Skype calls, the pleasure of sleepless night,
The joy, the happiness, the kisses, hugs tight,

 

But retrospectively everything looks nice,
There were many troubles in that paradise,

 

A strong heart but many times you broke it,
I believed the lies when you spoke it,

 

The sleepless nights were often spent crying,
When you didn’t reply me, I kept trying,

 

Like a lost puppy I kept coming back,
And the basic human intelligence you lack,

 

You made me feel miserable at times,
Maybe a twisted joke for your father’s crimes,

 

And the times when you would ignore me,
Broke me inside out, not even restore me,

 

Fighting with you, day and night,
Drenched in darkness without a light,

 

I lie in my poems about a fairy tale,
Being with you was torture but I didn’t bail,

 

That time when I called you and you passed the phone to your cousin,
You stood by laughing when he abused me for no reason,

 

And the time when you slept in arms of a friend,
Your betrayals started then and continued till the end,

 

All the money I wasted on the gifts I sent,
You stayed with me until I paid your rent,

 

And then you saw another man with money,
And you pursued him, being sweeter then honey,

 

You forgot four years of thick and thin,
You broken the promises for a temporary win,

 

You forgot the times I did save you,
And all your lies that I forgave you,

 

So here is a last goodbye, you’re gone,
It took me a while, but I finally moved on.

My Story

You may think you do, but you dont,
Know me, who I am and who I’m not,

Person you know is but an illusion,
Dont pretend to escape this dillusion,

This is my creation, my design,
An enigma you cannot define,

But don’t you dare think that I am lost and living a lie,
You will never understand me no matter how hard you try,

But this is how it’s supposed to be,
Trust me you do not want to know me,

You won’t be able to handle this reality,
I am eminence and this my cult of personality,

I am just not your typical good guy,
There is more to me then getting high,

But I don’t care to  explain myself to you,
Your perception of me is not true,

You are free to believe what you want,
Happy sometimes,  life is sometimes gaunt,

I stand in front of you in living colors,
Honest to the core, clearing blurs,

It’s not your place to judge me,
You do not know anything about me,

You do not know what I have been through,
You dont really want to know the truth, do you?

There was once a happy guy,
a nice guy, hence not a crappy guy,
who fell in love with a beautiful girl,
a dutyful girl, her hair in curl,
Her smile made him smile,
Her unique style, eyes deeper then nile,
They kissed eachother, missed eachother, 
Day and night, gay and bright,
In eachothers sight, their lives changed,
Feelings of love, blessings from above, 
They planned their future life,
As husband and wife,
The summer of joy,
They became the reason of life,
In season of joy,
A younger girl, an older boy,
Deeper then deepest oceans, taller then the tallest mountain,
The immortal love reigns,  
Spreading joy and no pain, 
They went to mountains tall and wide, 
No one to see them, no rules to abide, 
With god of love on their side,
They accepted their fate,  
Became eachothers mate,
They married eachother,
Through thick and thin, carried eachother,
He built a small house for her, a spouse to her
He wrote about her, thought about her, 
She inspired him, desired him, 
Admired him, they grew together,
But then changed the weather,
The winds of winter came,
Extinguished their flame,
Killed passion, 
Killed compassion,
Killed their desire,
To hold on, killed the fire,

She betrayed him with no mercy,
Wounded him for world to see,

His trust broke, a hurt bloke,
From the dream he woke,

Into reality and it’s brutality,
The fairy tale came to its finality,

His dreams shattered, his heart battered,
He was fool to think he mattered,

A cursed soul wandering about,
Drenched in so much pain and doubt,

He slept around and started drinking,
Did terrible things without thinking,

His life began spiraling down,
In hurtsville and disaster town,

Then something happened, he took control,
Right back from the edge,  he began to roll,

The experience forever changed him,
Absent love, a reaping grim,

A spec of former self, a shade,
Refusing to give up and fade.

So now you know my story,
Reality of life with no glory.

The Lucky People

The temper tantrums, the misunderstandings, the fights,

Then making up, kissing, caring, lovers delights,

 

So a new journey is starting again,

As heart recovers from the pasisng pain,

Of lost love, broken heart, stressed brain,

Life brought you once more to lovers lane,

 

The sounds of birds is a music to your ear,

But at the back of your mind the same old fear,

Will she be always far, never too near?

Lonely desires, sad heart, the fallen tear,

 

But then your phone vibrates with her messages,

Your expressions change reading those loving passages,

 

Love is immortal, eternal, gift from god I believe,

Lucky are the ones who give it and recieve.

Enlightened

Cursed is the heart, hurt, broken and dark,

burnt, destroyed, played, still carries the spark;

 

Storms of destruction, change, are weighing again,

the liars, the heart breakers, are playing again;

 

Its a game of love, you win or you die,

a fool to pursue,a fool to never try;

 

Trust in this world of deception and illusions,

perfect lives, beautiful wives, mere delusions;

 

So now wake you up, enlightened, open your eyes,

to broken trust, promises, and not so good byes;

 

She is gone, left you, but you are still here,

forget her, forgive her, move on I dare.