May i have enough to get by,
To smoke herb and get high,
To visit other dimensions and fly,
To rise up, rebel and defy,
These people in power who deny,
These people with suit and tie,
Who make us suffer and cry,
Now their end is nigh,
Time for them to suffer and die,
A freedom you cannot buy,
No matter how hard you try,
They will never understand you and I,
I am anything but an ordinary guy,
I had dreams which were shattered and broken,
But I finally broke my silence and have spoken,
I listened to my mind and was free,
I appear to you here but I live in Bree,
Or some other fantacy land,
Dgenxali is my identity, my brand,
I am the singer, the guitarist, the drummer, the whole fucking band,
No matter how many times you throw me down, I always rise up and stand,
Dont be fooled by my greetings and smiles,
I have lived hundred lives and ran thousand miles,
I just want enough to take care,
Of my parents who have always been there,
And of my brother who studies hard,
Whose hard work will have a reward,
I just want enough to serve my country and make it proud,
To shine light on it and it’s talented crowd,
Punjab, the land of five rivers is my mother,
The Sindhi, Balochi, Pakhtoon is my brother,
I just want enough to make this world a happy place,
To make it a paradise for people of every race,
To fight and make extinct the racism,
The nationalism, the nazism, the fascism,
I just want enough to look in God’s face,
To praise him, to love him, to be in His grace,
I just want enough to get by,
To live in peace, and in peace die.
You may think you do, but you dont,
Know me, who I am and who I’m not,
Person you know is but an illusion,
Dont pretend to escape this dillusion,
This is my creation, my design,
An enigma you cannot define,
But don’t you dare think that I am lost and living a lie,
You will never understand me no matter how hard you try,
But this is how it’s supposed to be,
Trust me you do not want to know me,
You won’t be able to handle this reality,
I am eminence and this my cult of personality,
I am just not your typical good guy,
There is more to me then getting high,
But I don’t care to explain myself to you,
Your perception of me is not true,
You are free to believe what you want,
Happy sometimes, life is sometimes gaunt,
I stand in front of you in living colors,
Honest to the core, clearing blurs,
It’s not your place to judge me,
You do not know anything about me,
You do not know what I have been through,
You dont really want to know the truth, do you?
There was once a happy guy,
a nice guy, hence not a crappy guy,
who fell in love with a beautiful girl,
a dutyful girl, her hair in curl,
Her smile made him smile,
Her unique style, eyes deeper then nile,
They kissed eachother, missed eachother,
Day and night, gay and bright,
In eachothers sight, their lives changed,
Feelings of love, blessings from above,
They planned their future life,
As husband and wife,
The summer of joy,
They became the reason of life,
In season of joy,
A younger girl, an older boy,
Deeper then deepest oceans, taller then the tallest mountain,
The immortal love reigns,
Spreading joy and no pain,
They went to mountains tall and wide,
No one to see them, no rules to abide,
With god of love on their side,
They accepted their fate,
Became eachothers mate,
They married eachother,
Through thick and thin, carried eachother,
He built a small house for her, a spouse to her
He wrote about her, thought about her,
She inspired him, desired him,
Admired him, they grew together,
But then changed the weather,
The winds of winter came,
Extinguished their flame,
Killed their desire,
To hold on, killed the fire,
She betrayed him with no mercy,
Wounded him for world to see,
His trust broke, a hurt bloke,
From the dream he woke,
Into reality and it’s brutality,
The fairy tale came to its finality,
His dreams shattered, his heart battered,
He was fool to think he mattered,
A cursed soul wandering about,
Drenched in so much pain and doubt,
He slept around and started drinking,
Did terrible things without thinking,
His life began spiraling down,
In hurtsville and disaster town,
Then something happened, he took control,
Right back from the edge, he began to roll,
The experience forever changed him,
Absent love, a reaping grim,
A spec of former self, a shade,
Refusing to give up and fade.
So now you know my story,
Reality of life with no glory.
Sitting alone in a rainy day,
Tired of games, too bored to play,
Nothing left to do, no demons to slay,
No one to please, no one to obey,
Panic, disorder, crisis of identity,
Is someone out there, any entity?
In the world of grey, there is no black and white,
Darkness is everywhere, no hope here, no light,
In this scarcity of matter, the emptiness is atomic deep,
What is real or imagination, what to lose, what to keep,
Finding God in this infinite multiverse,
Athiests fool themselves, but why are religions diverse?
In the grand scheme of things, who am I?
Do I matter, or will I just fade and die?
Will someone remember, will they cry?
Thinking of a guy who used to get high,
Endless dreams shattered in endless screams,
But I am still here, dreaming the impossible dreams,
Fighting for a future that may never be,
But the real fun is in the journey you see.
Does she think of you, did she care?
Was it just, is it fair?
Memories of past haunt me in my sleep,
Sometimes I lay in bed awake and weep,
Why cant we flip the switch and forget,
The pain, the hurt and the regret,
I smile and I drink and I dance and I hide,
The wounds, the scars, the broken side,
I am too proud to return, to ever go back,
Have to look ahead, put life on a different track,
I am happy, I have moved on,
I believed in love but I was proved wrong,
Life without love is a happy life,
No headache or drama, freedom, no wife,
Come party with me and enjoy this delight,
The sun is shinning and the day bright,
No reason to be sad,
You are alive, dont be mad,
Just smoke some pipe and be glad,
Survival of the fittest is evolution,
The time has come for a revolution,
Rise, rise, rise and take it all,
The time has come for the empire to fall,
Freedom and love for everyone,
Discriminate against no one,
Rise, rise, rise against the powers,
Crush down and destroy all these towers,
The avalanche of love will sweep the world,
Join hands with me and lets save the world.
“You are stuck with me for life”, he used to say..
But fact is nobody is stuck with anybody for life..
Life is like a river, flowing..it changes..air changes, climate changes, weather changes..everything changes..you change..the cells on your body change, old cells die and new cells are born to take their place, even your skin changes..you are not the same person you were yesterday..time changed you..time passes..endless flow which started from the beginning, if there was a beginning, and will continue till the end, if there is one..
Earth keeps revolving around the sun which keeps revolving around a blackhole which keep moving through time and space.. it doesnt stop turning, not for you, not for me, nor for any sage, any rich or poor, any prophet..everything is in motion..from cluster of galaxies amd their trillions of stars to the electrons inside an atom..if you stop, then the world leaves you behind..the universe leaves you behind..
Its wrong to expect things to be remain the same and same is true for people..people evolve, like everything else evolves..what we can do is just accept the changes and learn to live with them and evolve
Here at the top of world I see
I see buildings tall and cities
Cities and trees and birds whisper
Whispering songs of joy
Joy and love, these beautiful words
Words of peace and heart
Heart which is lonely alone
Alone in this time
Time is evolution
Evolution of heart and mind
Mind that is racing
Racing to face the challenges
Challenges which are in front
Front which I will confront
Confront and fight
Fight and survive
Survive and live
Live and breath
Breath the air
Air of fresh breeze and smoke
Smoke smoke i will not choke
Choke the bad memories
Memories that haunt
Haunt me inside out
Out of heart out of sight
Sight I love
Love is big word
Word or an illusion
Illusion which kills
Kills the desires
Desires which we have
We have and then we lose
Lose the faith
Faith which is essential
Essential to life
Life which I see
Here at the top of world I see
He woke up from a dream..good or bad he didnt know..it was a strange dream for it had roots in reality yet it was so alien to him..
He looked at wall clock while still laying in bed and saw it were 30 past 8..he turned to the other side to see the sun shinning bright..
He got up and sat on his bed..the memory of his dream still in his head..what did it mean, he wondered to himself..was it just a dream or a vision from future..he shook his head and got up from the bed..
He had plans today..he needed to go to university and study and get a hair cut and get water from his uncle’s house and exercise..
Exercise, he had been feeling his body aching at weird places and his back..he needed to get back in shape..sitting in front of computer and playing games and studying in his chair had taken a toll on his body..
He made himself breakfast..
Tomorrow was Eid, a happy festive day..he couldn’t wait to wear his new dress that his dad bought him..he was glad..he packed his back pack and left for the bus..
The sun was shinning hot..hotter then any other day..he went to the bus stop and sat and waited..he looked up at the sun through his sun glasses..it was bright and brilliant..the sky was bluish white with some cloud here and there..
He heard a weird sound that startled him..it was a strange hump sound..loud and deep..he got up looking around for the source but found none..he sat back again..
He pulled out his pipe from his pocket and filled it with tobacco..he began to smoke..and it was good..and relaxing..
The sound came again and he again looked around trying to find the source..he glanced again at the sun and then he saw it..
A small black dot..black or some other dark color..he kept staring at it as the object began to grow..becoming larger and larger by the second..perhaps some new italian space craft or international space station passing by Earth or or..he ran out of rational explanations in his mind as the strange sound once again originated from it..
He got up at once..he had seen it before..it was familiar to him but it shouldn’t have been..the object was the size of a whole football field hovering in sky..covering the sun slowly..the darkness spreading around him..
People started coming out of their homes looking up..fear in their eyes..screams and yells and curses..
Then a voice spoke in a language he knew not..He got scared and excited..
They were here!